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sometimes it feels as if I keep on trying only to hit several speed bumps. each speedbump knocks me off course and they come fast and hard. all I can do is try to fight them off and run back to the course. but of course I try to think positive but it seems the negative stands out in bold and the positive is in really tiny barely ledgible text. but I cling to hope. if I didn't have hope then what would I have? usaually if I wait long enough the positive will come and purge the negative almost as if it never existed. but of course its not permanately erased its still sitting there in the back of my mind biding its time until I'm vunerable again. and when the positive fades and the negativity returns so does all the negative in the back of my mind. and that is what therapists say is baggage. but how do you check the baggage at the door short of making yourself have amnesia? no I know I cannot get rid of the negative so what do I do instead? I try to turn that negative into a positive. I try to make the negative a learning experience in hopes that it won't happen again? sometimes it works. but when it doesn't then what does it do? do I move on forget the negative and only focus on the positive? I'm trying but sometimes I feel like being a whiny teenager and saying I quit! but I can't do that it only hurts myself. there comes a time in life where I have ot give up being a self-centered kid and become a responsible adult. I'm not saying it happens overnight. but I do realise that its time to grow up stop whining about the negative and make things happen and let no one stand in my way! and be the best most responsible young man I can be! this little engine will keep going and not give into the negativity that surrounds it! I know this sounds overtly positive but if I don't think as positive as possible then I might be doomed to a life of negativity! so screw life! screw negativity! cuz you know what? I'm going over this mountain and keep on going till I die!
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Posted by zypvashna on 2008-03-10 18:19:51 | Rating: | Views: 194
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Go For it - I for one am behind you, pushing you up the hill ... after all complete strangers have done it for me on here, and it makes such a different.
So Chug up that hill little engine there are plenty helping you push UP!
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Posted by EasyToSay
on 2008-03-10 23:22:02
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sounds like you have matured emencly,live is like a box of chocolates,lol
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Posted by necronomincon
on 2008-03-11 01:01:45
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i'm right behind you little engine. i'm the caboose you see. keep on keepin on.
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-03-11 08:04:30
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Let me see.
How could we turn our baggage ...into luggage?
Luggage is usually used for a vacation.
Wanna take a trip?
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Posted by DifficultSoul
on 2008-03-31 20:17:12
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