For those who read my last blog I'm back to report on my sex life. So first things first lets start from todays beginning. I went over to my fiance's house to hang out waiting for my mother to get home so my daughter & I could pay her a visit. Well after my daughter fell asleep for her nap I thought about what one person left me as a comment. It was a suggestion that they had written about foreplay & other things to spice up my sexual relations. So I thought what the hell lets give it a try it sure as hell couldn't get any worse.

So I try teasing him & a little foreplay. Nothing works! I can't freakin' believe this. I'm telling you I'm fed up. It's like he is in a marthon of who can get off first & I'm the one that never makes it to the end. I even went as far as talking really dirty to him. I honestly don't think that anything can help. Maybe we are so used to each other that sex is just as it is. I don't know, but I'm starting to really wonder about him. I'll tell you what if he comes to me one day & tells me he is gay I'll just die.

I honestly don't know what ever went wrong. I'm not gorgeous, but I think I'm good looking. I dress well, always fix my hair, always do my makeup. I cook whatever he wants, I do whatever he wants. When our sex life was the bomb I did whatever he wanted. Now it's like he is always in a hurry or just doesn't want to be with me anymore. But when I bring it up he tells me I'm crazy. I'm f***ing annoyed!

So the only other thing that I can come up with, tell me if you think I'm wrong, is that he is cheating on me. It wouldn't be a first, it would just be a first time that he has cheated on me and our sex life has went down the drain. If he is cheating on me whoever the whore is I hope she is getting laid a whole lot better than I am. If he is cheating on me though I just wish he would say something and let me go. That way I wouldn't feel so obligated to him.

At least let me get on with my life and find someone else. Someone who I can have toe curling, back braking, can't get enough SEX!!

Even though we occasionally have sex it isn't any good. It's like I'm malnurioushed and need to have sex. Alot of it. I don't know maybe it's just me, but I seriously doubt it. If he starts having mood swings and acting oddly then we will know that he has a little whore on the side.

I don't care if he does good luck to her. I hope it's better for her than it is me. Because right now I'm almost in abstenence hell. Might as well call it that because I dont get any much and when I do it really really sucks. Give it a few more weeks and I won't be getting any at all.