ive grown so accustomed
to all that i despise
seeing it every damn day
leaves it always in my mind
it all has given wrinkles
i grow before my time
i realize things i never should
and still cant see the lies
and if i seem so happy
have you not seen my cry?
this isnt who i really am
but i still always try...

i have shifted everything
that i could possibly
ever hope to be
away from me

bang my head against the wall
what little i have i lose it all
watch myself get thrown right out
my fucked up mind upon the ground
and i smash my last regrets
and forget what i just said

where have i just ended up?
what is this place i see?
so familiar yet left untame
in my memories
i feel its what i wanted
but hell, it scares me now
if this is where i truly belong
home is better not found
and perhaps what i need
is not a memory
but just to accept my fate
im lost without a guide
to lead me thru my life

i have kept everyone
that i should not
ever have loved
dead and numb

crush my heart beneath the sun
what little i want never comes
watch myself get burned right down
my charred tears upon the ground
and i stain my last regrets
and forget all that was said

purify my imperfections
only one can make decisions
will my feelings stay,
and not come in my way?
i need to spend a little time
with who or what will set me right
show me how to be like them
im tired of playing pretend
they dont ever recognize
but maybe now theyll realize
since i finally gave in...

i have been shifted by what i know
from way down low
up to me, so
where did it all go?

keep this trend away from why’s
what is left gets lost in time
watch their lives get tossed around
the pages scattered on the ground
and i tear my last regrets
and forget who was misled