i feel i have come to a time when i need a complete change. not only physically and mentally, but also something else: my name. I feel it is time i make justice and give my mom what she wants, what she deserves. I will change my last name, and will have my mom's last name because she deserves it. I dont need a last name of a father who was never there for me, he never took care of me or struggled with me. My mom did, all these years. I dont care what anyone else thinks, i dont care what my "family" if i could call it that, thinks. I will do what i want, and i will call have the last name of my mom. I know she wont ever be ok until that happens. And i wont nothing else than for her to be happy, and make it up to her after all the trouble i gave her along the years. its time to make it up to her.