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I guess getting back into the dating world after a painful break up is kind of a catalyst to getting over the ex. But, really, no matter who you date or how honest you are with them about the fact that they're a rebound, someone always gets hurt.
Is there any kind of romantic relationship that doesn't end with someone walking away?
Even if I really like my rebound, if I haven't gotten over Sean, I'm going to carry all those scars with me into a new relationship. I'm going to find it hard to trust someone again so quickly, I'm going to second guess all my feelings and thoughts, all his words and his actions.
The worst part about writing this blog is that I know if I'm honest with myself and whoever reads this, my rebound IS Sean. He's getting sucked back into a lingering relationship with me, and what we had--that gorgeous union of two people, whole and entirely in love--will be diminished into something base, something purely physical, like pissing for the relieving feeling of an emptying bladder, nothing more than an occassional hook up that starts to mean less and less.
Which means that if some great girl comes along, he won't be stable enough to pursue her...not if I'm still screwing with his head. Without a clean break, there's only limbo; this vague feeling that I'm single, but also attached. We're not supposed to be together, but I can't stand the thought of watching him hold someone else. Watching him shower another girl with the kisses that are supposed to be mine, watching him look in her eyes and her face the way he looks at me, seeing him hold her and tell her he loves her would absolutely break what's left of my heart.
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Posted by yalith777 on 2008-03-25 03:33:59 | Rating: | Views: 8
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