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Dear Adam (again)
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I read your blogs. I check them semi-frequently, but after reading the one you wrote two days ago, I'm thinking I should leave your private thoughts to be probed by other viewers. I don't seem to handle them very well.
I've never deliberately thought...
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yalith777 on 2008-07-18 19:16:27
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Dechire
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I am a woman torn asunder.
I'm trying to talk to someone across worlds, across the void, and still make it seem like the message isn't meant for him. But he knows it is.
He's talking to me through his web page, he's changing his songs so they reflect what he feels...
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yalith777 on 2008-07-15 18:10:26
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Jonny
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...is beautiful. He has a perfect smile, is just the right mixture of God-fearing humility and unconventional charm (with a slight disregard for rules) and knows when to be serious and when to be fun (for the most part). It turns out he came to GVBC specifically to find me. He saw me at his...
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yalith777 on 2008-07-11 05:52:50
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Don't Waste Your Time
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Ladies (and gents too, I suppose), you know that feeling when you meet one of the crazies? You know, one of the you-will-surely-be-an-ex-after-a-painful-and-stupid-breakup crazy? I mean that feeling when you first meet them, the very first date, when they're sitting in the car...
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yalith777 on 2008-07-05 06:19:18
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Across the Chessboard
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I used to try to make sure the right song was playing during the act, and he would try to play the role he thought he was supposed to, and in our small way we tried to make the art of loving as adult as possible. But we were children rolling a perfect glass sphere across a bed...
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yalith777 on 2008-07-03 03:09:17
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Back at Mom's
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So I finally moved back into my mom's house. The girls and Jer and I had an awesome run. Camille and I were out for a year and a half. But I'm pretty bummed. The bathroom over there was way nicer, and we had the pool. I completely redid my room here at my mom's, painted it and...
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yalith777 on 2008-07-02 03:10:32
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Doc's Appt
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So I went to the doctor's this morning. Routine stuff. Celine came with me because it's in Manhattan, pretty close to the beach, so we decided to tan after. While I'm waiting to get called, Celine and I are talking about boys. About ten minutes into it, the...
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yalith777 on 2008-06-19 04:31:10
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Back to therapy
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Well, Adam sent me a long letter last night, and it was basically, I don't remember what I said when I was drunk to make you start avoiding me, but I'm sorry. And the kicker was the "I love you, and I'm not afraid to say it (sober)." Two years after the break up. There was a whole lot in that...
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yalith777 on 2008-06-11 14:32:19
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identity
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I don't like being pretty. It hides who I really am. People don't see me, they see someone else, someone I don't know. And the image they have of me is cheap and unreal. And they expect things from me, things that I don't really want. I don't want their definition of success, and as they see me...
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yalith777 on 2008-06-09 03:19:02
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Dear Adam
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Hey, I miss you. You've been in Louisiana for a week now. And I haven't talked to you the entire time. I got your facebook message this morning. And you're right, when I said "g'bye," I really did mean it for more than just the eight weeks that you'll be gone. I meant it indefinitely. You said...
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yalith777 on 2008-06-09 01:53:22
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Blabbing. Don't Bother Reading This.
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I don't know if it's a culmination of being groggy and sick, missing my roommates and feeling alone, or if I just like the feel of the keyboard beneath my fingers but...there's something so tangible tonight about hope. Lonely or not, I feel like there's a wall just before me that I can...
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yalith777 on 2008-06-07 00:40:16
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Who Beats their Kid?? Explicit Content
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So my roommates are moving out. It's down to me and Camille again, the original two, going on two years on our own. Jeremy, my crush and make out buddy, is moving to his friend's house, which is cheaper. And Celine is mo
ving back home to her CRAZY ASS family. Her dad hit her for the first time...
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yalith777 on 2008-06-01 00:37:19
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Beaches
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When the night breaks over the beach, conquering the sunlight, nothing is more distant than the horizon, nothing more mysterious and lovely than the empty violet-black sky. Moonligh off water looks like something otherworldy, a soft silver resting on the suface of dark blue crystal--it's sapphire...
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yalith777 on 2008-05-27 19:53:50
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Boyfriends
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I feel like I've given my heart away too many times to be able to offer the next someone anything substantial. Abraham, Adam, Casey and Sean are the ones I've slept with. And that's a long track record for someone like me who wants to be "pure." In all other areas I'm pretty strong, but as far as...
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yalith777 on 2008-05-26 19:25:59
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Torture
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It's torture. It really is. I see Jeremy and I want to kiss him. I hate being around him because I know he doesn't want a relationship with me. But I love when he's home, even if I'm not talking to him, even if we're both shut up in our rooms, afraid to look at each other. But I can't stand when...
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yalith777 on 2008-05-21 14:06:33
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Soft Like Sapphire pt 2
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My first morning at college, sunlight was the first thing I felt on my face. Heat through glass, warmth and brightness pouring the day into my eyes. The morning was cool, i silently enjoyed the sensation of my feet on bare floor, my hands on smooth walls, the sound of giddy...
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yalith777 on 2008-05-19 19:56:35
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Repeating Mistakes
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So I was pretty psyched a few weeks ago when my roommate Jeremy finally initiated the first kiss. We'd been digging each other for a loooong time, pretty much secretly until I started dating someone and he confessed his affection (too little too late at the time). But it was an awesome kiss, an...
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yalith777 on 2008-05-19 19:39:12
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Passion
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Life progresses unheeded by passion, but passion colors life in vibrant shades. It lends strength to emotions, it challenges stagnancy, and it repudiates passivity. Passion demands action, motivates the most banal of minds to hope that any action rendered to a cause may achieve more than...
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yalith777 on 2008-05-06 12:45:54
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Him
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He is the only thing that makes sense to me. He is my only certainty. No one else even comes close. He makes me grateful, he makes me see wonder in everything, joy in pain, beauty in sorrow. He wants me to be happier everyday. He makes things more bearable for me. His smile is the only thing I...
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yalith777 on 2008-05-06 02:41:34
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Soft Like Sapphire pt 1
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My father taught me that teardrops look like sapphire in the moonlight. His shadow was blue against my bedroom wall, and his face, dimly illuminated, looked pale and soft. I reached up to touch his cheek, and laughed in surprise at the rough stubble.
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yalith777 on 2008-05-04 19:58:58
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