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I will warn you now not to read this. If you have read myshit before be warned I do not tell a pretty story. I am only telling because if I don't I could become worse than I am already. No thats not right, I am what I am. No-one created me, You can think me a bad person. But I bet I have done more good in my life than any of you that think me a bad person.
I realy hate preists, why? Do you realy wana know? Well you don't have clearence for that. It is top secret info. I know you may have an idea, but I created me. Not the situations or things I have seen. I created me, I am the product of my own choices. I do not blame others for the things I have done or that have happened to me. I do not cry about anything in my life, I do not dwell in the past.
I try to be good to everyone I meet. I follow a code of conduct that most of you do not understand. I have tried to let you into my mind, you are welcome.
This is your warning not to read any further.
I am a happy guy. I have made £650 today in the time most un-skilled people make in two weeks. I have bought a new suit, its very nice. I like to shop. I fucking love money, money is the best thing I think. Yes I did have to suck afew cocks and take it and give it. I do what I must, but mostly I enjoy what I do. I may well be a male nyntho, but I'm happy being me.
I don't just shag, I talk to. I help people this way. Some men are upset that they believe that they are gay. Some are suicidle because all their life they have been told it is wrong, and Daddy doesn't want to know them. I have saved lives. Some could have been rapists or killers, I have prevented this.
Some go back to their wifes, happy and content to stay with her, after a mid-life crisis. Some just want to know themselfs better, to explore their sexuality.
This is not the only way I have helped people. I have made girls and guys feel good about themselfs, making them feel pretty/handsom. I have used my money to help under priviledged children too. I have taken in the homeless, I have given jobs to people who need a job. Not in prostitution, in lots of ways. Gardeners, cleaners, general work I need. Putting trust in people you would never trust. Most of my Ex's are better off in life through being with me. I am never rasist, I am never cruel to others without good reason, and if I can help I do. I try to bring everyone up a notch.
Lots of people in my world are better for meeting me, some wish they never had and I am happy for the ones who are glad. The others, should not have caused trouble for me. The preist was sorry he met me that night too. I fuckin' hate preists.
BUT most of all I am happy with my life and the choices I have made. I would make them again, only afew things would change. No-one can control me but me. All I want for people is for them to be free, and to better themselves. Not carring what others think, doing what they want to.
One day everyone will do what they want, and we will find a balance, and be happy with each other.
Final thought: Sexuality is there to be played with and explored, but sexuality is the way to connect with others. Explored alone it will damage you. Find you animal side and go be an animal. A real human is an animal not what you are right now.
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Posted by yadokta on 2008-06-18 18:41:52 | Rating: | Views: 133
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"One day everyone will do what they want, and we will find a balance, and be happy with each other."
In a perfect world, yes. I like this post. Seems like youve got most of it figured out :]
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Posted by smileforthecamera
on 2008-06-21 17:55:51
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We can hope yes.
Thanks for commenting. :)
Long time no see.
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Posted by yadokta
on 2008-06-22 07:16:09
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well write on man! hey do you, and none else matters, course me doing me means everyone else matters, but thats some psychobabble bull sh&@ we cant get into here.
In ever good mans life there are things that most would deem wrong. I made the front page of the local paper 3 times for my criminal behaviour, I made it 42 times for deeds above and beyond ,but noone remembers the mans life I saved on the greyhound, they remember when the judge let me off, or threw me in.
Yin and yang, my friend. the balance of all good and bad, it is what we are.
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Posted by tonyrayhutchison
on 2008-06-22 18:16:06
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YES, you hit the hammer with the nail there. Yin and Yang. Balance is all we need.
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Posted by yadokta
on 2008-06-22 18:21:43
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i like this post .. its a fact ! ... i believe u n everything u said .. i am not against u coz u often tend to change ur preferences and do it for money and for ur pleasure at the same time .. but i like what u think .. i like people who think that way ... this is the type of freedom that i always talk about .. i liked the good things that u did wit the money like , u know , the helping others part n all .. the community may not accept it but i will give u a 10 out of 10 !!
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Posted by RONVY
on 2008-07-02 17:34:34
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I'm glad you like it, this came from the heart.
The community can kiss my ass! The people I would love to change. Community is a small group of power searchers in my mind. Community promotes closed boarders, rules and rasism. "I don't want them in my community" "keep gays out of our community" That kind of thing. :)
Thank you for reading RONVY your opinion is valued.
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Posted by yadokta
on 2008-07-02 19:01:02
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