I am sooooo, fucking scared now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! After I posted a bit angry at her. I'm in my kitchen with my quilt over my head and pc. One of my friends is coming round to stay at my house in abit. I can't wait! Tihs is my only way to feel ok. Fucking hell man! I feel like I'm on the blair witch!!!  I meen I'm taking this pretty cool, but I'm scared. It was ok till I posted the last one.
                        I gota tell you. Right after I posted the last post on 'my girl cont.'. I thought I had upset her so, I went into the living room (umm noitice the irony?) I was like "right, listen I don't want to upset you but it anoys me to see that my lights are on. and I like writting. Its like my diary. I put lots of things on there." Then a glass fell in my bar! I was like WOW!!! Then I ran up stairs saying that she was scaring me! I phoned my friend hes coming round but laughting his fucking head off at me!
                          I actully wanted to write abit more about life as a male escort, this is fucking rediculous! How can I make it right, with me and her? I don't want a 'priest' in my house! I realise this is a comedy situation, but comedy makes it less scary.
                           I fucking believe 100000000% today. If she jus wants a relationship I am ok with it as long as she stops scaring the shit out of me! fuck! I can hear knocking, no fucking shit. I don't want to tell you where I live or I would record this and post it. Where the fuck is my mate?!!
                          I'm fucking loosing it man! I hope you read this and feel sorry for me. Even if your feeling sorry for me for being mad. I'm gona start making clay bowls soon.
                         Shit, I'm gona do something supid now. Bye.