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| i wont be a puppet in your play. |
I always thought i would be special.famous.well known.
I always knew..that by the time i was 30 i would be great.
Maybe not a household name,but still great.
My astrology chart says i will be all those things too,and more.
But i knew it before that,before it was set in stone.
Sometimes i feel so insignificant.
or just normal,dumb,or useless.
But im not,i know im not.
I look at other 14 year olds and realize i am something special.
I am significant.
I dont know when or how i will become what i am destined to be.
But its coming
its in my future
and im sitting here waiting.
I know im super smart.
I know im a great writer.
I know im a good person.
but i also know that with todays society comes distractions and obstacles which i am not yet strong enough to overcome the first time.
and these things are breaking me down.
These things are molding me,into something i dont want to be.
These things are brainwashing me.
and every day i fight them.
everryy day i learn something new about myself.
every single day i get inspired to write something or to capture a moment with a camera not worthy of its beauty.
every single day is a journey which i struggle to complete.
I try as hard as i can to be myself,and to not give in to society and to not be molded.
I do a better job than most,yes,but its not good enough.
and if i was good enough,then what? what do i do with this knowledge of myself?
what do i do with these self realizations?
what do i do with my poems and my writings?
what do i do with anything?
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Why should i learn every little thing the government wants me to?
why should i spend 9 hours of my day focusing on stuff i could care less about?
why cant i learn what I want to learn? why cant i be who i want to be.
and not what the government wants to see.
I wont be your brick in the wall,made in 1995,raised on a farm until im 17,and then put to work right after.
I wont believe what you want me to.
i wont be content with what you tell me.
ill question every word you say.
and i wont stop until im satisfied.
I wont wear your uniform,i wont sing your song,i wont do your work,i wont speak your language,i wont read your script,i wont be a puppet in your play.
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yeah life is hard yeah everyone has to do it.
but you dont have to,there IS a better way,there is a way for you to be happy always.
there is a better way.
i believe that 100%
theres a happy fix for everything somewhere out there.
that doesnt mean anyone knows what it is,though.
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Posted by xoxoshaina on 2009-10-23 09:48:35 | Rating: | Views: 35
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