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so...i truly have no idea what im going to write about. Slash would call it a Blah blog. so i guess thats what it is.
a lot has changed in teh past two years. and boy do i mean alot. I just dont know if its for the better. See, i used to be a fun loving, happy, brighten-up-the-room kind of kid - well..when i wasnt trying to mess with my brother. ugh i was such a bad sister
...anywho...
as i said a lot has changed. it very wierd to tell u the truth. a couple years ago: i bursted into laughter for no reason. i was the randomest kid you would ever find on the face of the earth (no...that does not include the mole people...hehe) i was ablvious to everything and anything bad around me. i was... what do u call it? oh yeah...happy. It was a time when everything felt simpler and when i imagine it, i imagine it brighter too.
so i guess i matured. or maybe i am still that care-free kid i was back then only shes buried deep inside me. Maybe. or maybe shes lost. maybe shes dissapeared.
ahh, the brighter times back then seem like a different life. a happier era.
now...?
now im just... greiving for all those times. i miss them. i want them back. im sure if i told my mom to get meds for me she would. but i dont want them...it seems like surrendering to me. Is that wierd? i dont want help...but i do. my emotions are so twisted inside me that i cant tell what is what.
And what the hell is up with all these depressing blogs? why does everything i write have to be sad? thats prolly why the friends i actually know face to face stopped reading them. I dont blame them. I scare myself too.
but i cant think of anything good to write about. well..ok...other than Breaking Dawn comes out in 2 days...
No, not sad..but what if just plain annoyed?
yes i have been annoyed recently. see, i have to go to band camp *GAG!* because i play the flute...because my mom played the flute...but i hate the flute. basically because its boring...
anyways..so this chick i've known since 3rd grade is there too. and her parents bought a piccalo for her (they're rich and she spoiled and snobby who would have guessed?) so shes been shoving the thing in my face. and so i said..if u do that again im gonna snap that piccalo in half... i dont think she took my threat seriously. damn. meanwhile, the band director...Mr. white-and-nerdy (and looks like a monkey) hates me. he never picks me to be guide right when we march (the person who keeps the other people in line...) he always picks her. which im not to bothered about.. until she rubs THAT in my face. im sensing a pattern... and the funny thing is..She still is totally oblivious to the fact that i hate her..or maybe shes just playing dumb..either way she needs to get punched sometime...argh and i never thought of myself as the voilent type.
ah well
oh and one other thing. He hates me when she makes fun of him in front of his face? doesnt that just tickle you? hmm...it doesnt bother me as much as im making it. besides i dont even like the instrument.
so whatever.
-Nova
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Hehehehe I think I know who the chick you hate is! Starts with M right?
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Posted by neko_chan765
on 2008-07-30 23:29:02
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I'm in the same situation as you.Except instead of two years, my world came crashing down in the past few months.It's gotten to the point where i also can't remember when i was ever, truly happy.But i'm also at the point where i'm okay with it being that way.And era's usually never repeat themselves, you know?Once that time is gone, it's gone.You can't bring back time.
And i am so siked about Breaking Dawn!
And i know that girl at band camp's type.It sucks how things usually pan out with the bad guy winning.But at least you know yourself that you're a better person then her.Then you can just roll your eyes and treat her how she deserves to be treated.LOL.Good luck.With everything.
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Posted by Wickedlovely826
on 2008-07-31 15:54:16
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its true what the public says even if we dont want to beleive it.
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Posted by Black_Angel
on 2008-07-31 16:17:24
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neko: yepp sadly it is Mel.
letty - thanks its good to know that people are going through the same thing as me (did that sound mean?) well u know what i mean
Wicked - thanks for the comment and support. yeah that chicks a douche...oh so ur a fan of B.D too? thats awesum. thanks. ^^
black_Angel - i think thats true sometimes, but the public can be wrong to. like rumors u know? or just plain lies. with mel tho (the girl) its true what people think about her hehe - :)
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Posted by xmidnightxwingsx
on 2008-07-31 16:22:12
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Hell Yeah!Irritating people are EVERY WHERE!:P
Anyway,childhood is usually a lovely experience since life is simpler back then.I get wht you're saying about being oblivious to the bad things around.
But then,all of us grow up,don't we?
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Posted by HardThinker
on 2008-08-01 08:57:18
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thanks for stopping by.
yeah we all do. i just feel like im way to young to grow up you know? im not old enough at all, but i feel old. really old. but anyways..thanks for the comment! :)
- Nova
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Posted by xmidnightxwingsx
on 2008-08-01 12:14:32
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hahaha nova! you know, i think you're more confused than you think you are! you say you miss that random girl. just read your blog again. ITS FULL OF RANDOMNESS!!!! its like, you're writing about this one thing, but you're constantly side-tracking with your thoughts in brackets and stuff! and its highly amusing! that girl isn't one bit lost. she's a part of who you are. all that's changed is that you've stopped being oblivious to the things you were before. so yeah, all the sad things that you were conveniently ignoring in the past, you can't seem to get away from em now. honestly, just keep up with the randomness and trust your thoughts more than you do. find funny things even in sad situations. i know you can do it! ;)
just be random. it helps. and be cynical, its fun and sometimes it pisses people off, which is always awesome. have you ever noticed how its always more fun annoying the people who get annoyed easily? :D
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Posted by Slash
on 2008-08-01 15:54:01
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thanks slash. for everything. your right! it is fun to annoy my mom (even though usually i have no idea how i did it)
and then she says that im annoying her when duh! she's the one trying to control my life. anyways thanks again for stopping by
- Nova
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Posted by xmidnightxwingsx
on 2008-08-01 16:24:22
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