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i realize, wherever i work or study i will get myself into something risky. yes, guys, boys or men. depending on the age i was at that point of time.
when i was doing my temporary job, i was 16 that time. i had a crush with an office boy. i looked forward for our tea break, as that will be the time we can exchange smile or glance. THAT made me happy. and mind you, i was 16!
later on when i was in college, i would fall to any tom-dick-and-harry. i didnt care how uncharming they might look but if any guy gave an extra attention to me, i would melt. yes, i did reject one guy. well he is totally unacceptable to me. he is not ugly but he is not clever enough to win my attention. i do have some quality to get attracted to the opposite sex. mainly the looks and secondly he is not dumb. yes, intelligence is very important to me.
after graduation, when i started working, the pattern does not change. i made myself at the expense of any men. i would secretly get attracted to them and finally broke my own heart as he didn't reciprocate. in one occasion, i fall to a younger men, a guy! he is 6 years my junior! as stated earlier on, i deliberately put myself in the trash.
ironically, after being married i do still get attracted with my male colleagues. i dont know why, maybe it's the thrill or it's just a sickness in me! i had a crush with my boss and spent most of my time with him.
and now in a new working environment, again i am surrounded with good looking, heart breaking guys and married men.. that didn't scare me off. one of the guys whom i had a crush with started to give me extra attention. and one day i was shocked when he said he missed me so much.. i knew he was flirting with me and i let him!
wat is wrong with me??
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Posted by xcapade on 2009-10-27 11:13:49 | Rating: | Views: 8
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