After reading something today...that I guess I wasn't really "supposed" to read...I can honestly say I am ABSOLUTLY cOnFuSeD. It has to do with my religion. Im not really going to discuss what I read or why I wasn't suppose to read it to further avoid any unneeded comments and the fact that the knowledge I have gained is something I was supposed to patiently earn and it is to be obtained with the highest degree of respect and worthiness...

But, what I will say...is that in many different ways I feel a little more nervous for what my future holds. I am completly devoted to my church in everyway, shape, and form...I KNOW that it IS the TrUe church and was restored by a blessed and brilliant young man. With that said, there are certain things I must accomplish in this lifetime to once again live with my Heavenly Father...and one of these things is to be married in The Lords House and be forever sealed or "binded" to my LoVe, by people with the proper authority to do so.

Although I DO understand what is expected of me and I agree with it 100%...but at this point in time, I am wOnDeRiNg "wHy" about a number of different things. I am finding it hard to understand wHy when I go to get married...a lot of things that I nEEd to do are very "symbolic" and are actually on the verge of scarey. I am also attempting to comprehend wHy I actually have to be "ok" with someone stating to me that a variety of horrible things (which I will not name) will happen to me if I speak of certain events which I took place in during my marriage. I know that it is simply my responsibility to put my faith in the Lord and know that I will someday understand the importance of the many things I do not fully comprehend now. But because I am young and curious...I do hope that my "wondering" will have no effect on my future. I do hope that I will soon gain that strength I need to put all my faith into the Lords hands and let him guide my way on the path I know I am supposed to be on.

I Bare My Testimony,

That I know this is the TrUe church and was restored by a Prophet. I know that there is another Testiment of Jesus Christ and that these words are true. I know that there is a living Prophet today that has continued to guide us and our church through revelations of our Lord. I know that as a child of God, I have been blessed with a wonderful Family and soon to be Husband that have stood by me always. I am truely thankful for our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and for the Atonement. I am thankful that this gives us an option to repent for our sins and to once again live with our Heavenly Father. I am so very greatful for the true authority we hold to perform baptisms, eternal marriages, and being sealed to our families. I have prayed countless nights, asked for what is right, and have recieved my answer. Brothers and Sisters, this is true. These teaching are true. This knowledge is essential. And living my life by these Commandments, Standards, and Morals is what my Lord and Savior has asked of me. I love my Heavenly Father with all my heart...and he loves me even behond my own knowledge. I long to live with him again...and I will strive each day to do what I know I need to do, to once again be in his presence.

I Say These Things In The Name Of Jesus Christ,
Amen.