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Each breath that you take has a thunderous sound

All in all, today was a pretty good day. I don't know what I was thinking with the suicide thing. Shane has chick friends, and that's fine. I have plenty of guy friends. Almost too much.
And Shane still loves me. He pretty much told me so today. I'd never do something like killing myself if it ment, even if he didn't love me anymore, I couldn't see him, and talk to him, and still be his friend. As much as it makes me uncomfortable. Like...he called his ex, Sammy, last night and talked for a long time....
*deep sigh*

But I still feel like dying. I can't help that. And there isn't really much right now that can make me feel better. Except talking to Shane....and seeing how he feels. And so far, that's going pretty well.

But....today something bad did happen. One of my close friends....won't play the name game....told me that a month ago, she had a miscarrage, is getting married to her boyfriend, and for some reason (she won't tell me) says that she is going to kill herself tonight.
But she won't. I know she won't.
She isn't like that. She just likes to talk.

Listening to "True Love" by Angels & Airwaves. It's depressing me, but I love that song so much.

Me and my friends have had a conversation about Taylor.....
And we've decided since Mollie "rejected" him, and turned him away from women forever, that Taylor will grow up, and mate with a cat, who twitches and loves Jesus more than he does, if that is even possible.
I think that really is going to happen.
Ah, the joys of having an autistic friend.
(No offense to anyone, I have autistic friends and they're cool. Siriusly.)

Paige is getting contacts soon.

Stupid frickin' Allen....in Math....
Allen and Shane poked holes in the cap of their water bottles, and were drinking out of them, and Allen squirted me in the back of the head with it......and sparkled me.
Oh, and Shane thought it was HILARIOUS when I got sparkled. Jerks.
Will got sparkled about 80 times in the face by that asshole (even in the EYES), and squirted in the face with water.
If I was Will, I would have hit him so hard in the mouth....
And I told him that.
(Sparkled is when someone has a hand full of glitter, and blows it on you)

I had to write TWO effing reports this morning in Carrer, Family and Leadership class. It sucked a lot.

I only need 1 more person to rate me for that assignment.
I rated myself a 98 total...
Paige rated me an 81 total...
G-ma Jean rated me a 114 total...
And Tiffany rated me a 121 total....

Sweet...

I'm gonna go write another poem.
Later, friends!!

xx