Well, theres a whole lot to say! You might say "yeh a normal tipical girl with her problems" well yes you could say that. And every person you think that about it could be true. But have you ever stopped to think about the problems they go though? They might seem not to bad but these people are hert inside about them, people like me!

                         HI there, my name is ashley and this is how my life goes;

One of the problems i go through is something i call "yo mama" jokes. my mom died when i was 4 and every time someone makes a joke like that it knocks me out inside. Now i dont show it on the outside because it would make the other person feel horrible. Even if they say "Im so sorry i forgot" that kinda makes it worse. "Oh yes ashley i forgot your mom died and im so sorry but im going to keep on forgeting and making the jokes" HAHA so NOT funny.

Resently my dad remarried and we are now living together My Dad, Her, And i... my family now reminds me of a balloon just being held together by a peice of duck tape, :S. 

Another one of those "TYPICAL" problems is getting made fun of, well yes i could ignore it. Frankly i've tried it. I have been doing it for years, honestly i think its a bad idea. WHY? because its telling people that its okat to bottle up there anger and its NOT good to that and thats what has made me like this. Angry, Fusteraded and unsecure. I know i will never think of anythink stupid like 'comiting suicide'. but sometimes i feel when im being peer presured into drugs, what would happen, i have seemed to hold myself together and not to do it. but im wondering if i am going to be able to do it the rest of my life.

Well you might or might not have wondered about "what" i get made fun of about, its about my hair. When i was little i have long wavy hair. And when i was around 4 years old i hade to get i cut. After that my dad would get it cutt regularly. Now that caused my hair to be all puffy and curly. its about up to my shoulders when its straightned but it looks REALLY bad and i dont know how to fix it. Yeah i could suggest paying $800 to get it permently straightned for a couple months, but where is a 13 year old girl going to get $800 every other month? PARENTS? Nah they barley pay for anything, anything as in all school stuff. I want pencils heres $2 go buy pencils. I have already tried saving upp the money i get for school stuff plus my $10 allowence but it doesnt do much. $10 a week isnt bad but eh what are yeh going to do complaining makes it worse.

I live in a big house and i have a bigger room then most people, but i have Chores and Rules in my house. Not to mention a bed time :S this is another problem; Its SO emaressing when friends come over for a sleep over, witch is barley ever cause i usually over there to stay up all night. When they come over i need to be in my rrom at 10 and lights out at 11. Most of the time my parents (dad and step mom) are very good about it but when it comes to like 11:30 - 12 they come in and say lights out. Okay yeh yeh 12 is kinda late Not for a bed time :( None of the friends i know have bed times on the weekend, so it makes it hard for me to make friends if i am embaressed for them to sleep over at my house.

Last problem, I and most people have; LABELING!?

This is a stupid thing, "your emo" "your Preppy" "your just plain weird"

well your mean okay, so what if im any of these things i may be emo, preppy or weird does this have anything to do with you, UM NO! The thing i get called is emo, emo is a short for for emotions it doesnt mean you purposly cause pain upon yourself. (cutting, drugs) It usually can mean a style of music, or a just plain a style. I do wear black eyeliner, tight jeans and sweaters with holes on the end, listen to alternitive or screamo music this is the style i like this is me!

Well enough Bloobering on about me if you have simalar problems, comment on my blog i would like to talk, and i will keep you updated on things in my life. :) Be sure to comment!