So there's this boy. He's everything I want. But today he did something that scared me. Scared me, the girl who loves commitment, and relliablity, and certainty. Today, the girl who's always wanted long term love got spooked by a silly little photo. But why? I'm the one who's been waiting for him to ask that question, the question and answer set that brings all the commitment, all the solid reality to whatever is floating in the air at the moment. And I do want it. I do. But today, seeing that photo, it sent shockwaves up my spine...

I'm not afraid of commitment. At least, I didn't think I was. Until now, when I saw that. But he's everything I want, and I'm not going to lose that. So I'll go straight on into this, plunge straight in, head first. And pray that this risk,, this big chance, doesn't turn out like the other ones- broken. Becuase you can't live life clinging on to what you've always known, out of fear for what might happen. Becuase sometimes what might happen, could end up being all you've ever wanted. I will let go. Please catch me.