she's gone. she says she loves me, but cant be with me. I'm finding it hard to be without her. I've never felt so crushed in my life. I cant eat. I dont sleep unless I take something to help me sleep. I find it hard to even get out of bed anymore. My friends and family dont see it. I pretend I'm okay, but inside, I'm dying. She was the one I could have spent my life with. My soulmate. But she left. She got scared and left. She says she's hurting too, but she's not showing it. She says she's 'figuring out' her life. And she always said that I was going to be a part of it. But she lied. Just like the rest of them. All of them are the same. Girls play games. And I'm always ending up hurt because I dont know how to play them.


I just want this pain to go away.