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Just dealing.....

Nothing has changed since I last wrote. Moods are better right now because tax refund and stimulis check has come in vacation is over and mothers day has passed. She keeps saying things like it's all about me... At first I would laugh because I thought she was fooling around,but, over the past few years I have come to realize that she may actally be serious. I guess I have spoiled her too much.. We don't argue too much any more only because we don't say much to each other. I realized the other day when I kissed her after giving her,her card that it's the first time we kissed in over 3 months.. Not just that but, the last 3 Mothers day I haven't bought a card that has "I love you" written on it.. Every year I look and when I see a card that has the word love on it, all I can think about is... do I???? ehhhh I don't know,so I find a funny card and sign my name to it.. candy flowers what ever she said she wants for that year. this past year she bought chairs..
While we were on vacation her sister asked how things were going and she said great everything is good, things are finally falling into place.....All I could think of was honey, I can hand you divorce papers right now and not think twice about it.....then hit on your sister as I leave.....Is she that blind???????????????
I mean, no intercourse since Dec30th,2007.... We held hands once in early April, She drinks falls asleep on the couch until 1 am and goes to bed while I get on the computer.. She wakes me up before she goes to work because I slept on the couch. How can she actually think things are great???????????????????
The other day I woke up at 7am because it was my daughters last soccer game and I was coach, and I had to p/u team pictures..got to the field ,got the pics, played the game, took the team out for a end of season treat (ice cream), walked in the door sat on the couch because I worked the day before and I was tired....my son said he was bored and was going to go upstairs to play.. my wife looked at me and said you look tired and I said sleepy too, she turned around not 2 seconds later and told my son why don't you and your dad go out and play...Which he said okay too, and when I got up to get my sneakers on again she laid on the couch and turned the tv on... My son then said I wished you had a bicycle so we can go riding...and she said so,go buy one and ride.....knowing that I could barely keep my eyes open at this point...but, what am I supposed to do?? He was very excited about it...then after 4 hours of playing and riding outside..I walked into the house and guess what..She wanted me to grill....so up I went and got that started, only to find out the grill was out of gas. So off I go to get a new tank,got it home and the damn knob on it was FUSED, I couldn't open the valve....SO, I load it it back into the car and off I go again to swap that tank out... Got home ,cooked everything and when we were done with dinner.I got to sit for 30 min then It was time for bed...So off I go to brush everyones teeth and tuck them in for the night....I come back downstairs and she's watching a commercial for mothers day..."Give mom the night off" she turns around and says "Just one???I deserve a week off/.....I WANTED TO GO OFF"........BUT, i JUST SHUT MY MOUTH AND OFF i WENT INTO THE COMPUTER ROOM. Came out not 5 min later only to find her asleep, However, she did wake up around 11pm to go to bed and to remind me that the car needs gas so she can go to work in the morning............FYI--- If this is your first time reading my articles, My wife doesn't pump gas....EVER...

I talked to one of her friends about how things are and she turned to me and actuallly said sometimes you just have to try harder to make things work.............And to top it off now, my "HOT" neighbor was talking to me today about going to the outdoor pool at the "Y" this summer....YEAH!!! thats all I need is to see her in a bikini...I'll never get out of the deep end..LOL...well thats it for now, I have to make dinner...life goes on....