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    Posted by wittness on 2009-11-07 14:26:42 | Rating: | Views: 54
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It is worth it, in fact I have been going through this currently as well, I just discovered I was a Lesbian and told everyone two weeks ago. I have blogged multiple times about it starting with, "I'm scared. I'm Lesbian and I'm scared."

It's tough right now, no one from my Church is talking to me, they keep attacking me, tell me I'm going to hell (As if I care), begging me to repent, and reading off scriptures to me and all they want to do is talk and it's annoying as all get out. I wanna scream at them to shut up and back off. It got so bad that I had to take some of them off my facebook, de-friend them.

My family, well my Mom and I have never gotten along so she just laughed, the others are disgusted with me.

I know that sounds horrible but for once in my life, no matter how crappy I'm feeling about losing almost everybody I love, I feel free. I feel like me and it feels good. My Non-christian friends have been very supportive, and they come to my aid when I get attacked from someone.

It's worth it, you just have to stand strong throughout the storm. And I'll be there (Well here) if you need to talk or need support. But live your life for you, not others. You gotta do what's best for you and not others. Cause in the end, when you are on your death bed it's YOUR life you have to be happy with, not how you made other people's lifes happier.
Posted by  melissailene  on 2009-11-07 14:44:07 
  
Thanks!! so i did do the right thing by actually telling them. And i feel for you and not being able to get along with your family in YOUR time of actually needed them there for you. a lot of my other friends were out casted by their families. i had many of friends crashing at my place on the couch because their parents had nothing else to do with them. it took time but they did get over it and now they are on talking terms again. i really do like the statement that you put in there about being on my own death bed and how i will feel about my life as is went by. thanks again!
Posted by  wittness  on 2009-11-07 14:52:47 
  
No problem, I think I needed to say that for me just as much as for you and I'm glad it helped, somewhat, as much as anything wirtten can. =]
You did do the right thing, because if you hadn't you would have been basically living a lie.
You're a good friend, I have had one friend offer me a place to stay for a couple weeks, however my mom might be going to jail so I might have to get a job and an apartment all to myself (I'm 19 and still in High School--I made a few mistakes in life), and I read how you were outta the house with a job and school at 18 and here I am at 19 still crashing at Mom's and in High School with no job. Inspirational in my opinion. I just don't wanna grow up.

Anyways. I'm going to go accept your request. =]
Posted by  melissailene  on 2009-11-07 14:56:39 
  
LOL!!!!! yeah i was a quick study. i was ready to get my life started at the age of 13 LMFAO!!! i have 3 other siblings (im the middle child) and out of them all, i was the first one out the house at my age. my 2 older siblings left at the age of 21 and my younger one stayed til she was 18 but moved in with me because she wanted to graduate from the high school were i lived at was zoned.(thats were all her child hood friends went to) But theres nothing wrong with staying at home. sometimes i wish i stayed just 2 more years before i decided that i was a 'MAN' and could do it all by myself. but let me know if you have any questions at the age you are at about moving on your own. i'll try my best in giving you information that i learned at that age. (from a Virginia stand point not NY i havent been there yet LOL)
Posted by  wittness  on 2009-11-07 15:49:47 
  
I once went to the city to see a friend, who unbeknowing to me was part of the gay sean, Im a easygoing chap, and at the time totaly nieve, and as usual I had angels looking after me, and I lived in a gay suburb, with a gay friend [guided by angels] who made a point of introducing me as such and such the HETROSEXUAL!

Now, the attention I caused as men were knocking on our door continueously wanting fresh meat, like the story of Lot in Sodom, thankfully an angel came to my rescue.

Now your suppressd life as a christian [Latterdaysaints??] as many christian families do supress the crap out of developing children, and they tend to spin off in the opposite direction later in life, [in all forms of anti establishment,] so, you know the written word dont you, or in your inner rebelion it went in one ear and out the other, but it is all there!

Welcome to the CLUB OF THE WORLD my friend, and we can all suffer its end together, when a voice comes out of the clouds "I TOLD YOU SO!"
Posted by  PRAVUIL  on 2009-11-07 16:04:56 
  
Oh Jehover, well roll me over, I was going to say thaaaaaat!
Posted by  PRAVUIL  on 2009-11-07 16:07:39 
  
LOL!!!! Pravuil you are something else. LOL!!! my way of rebelling from the life of Church was to take a class in Theology and learn the other religions of the world. There was some serious questions i always had about other ones, and I still remain Christian(Roman Catholic) and try at my best to live my life threw the teachings of our Lord. but you're right about that. 'HETROSEXUAL' LOL!!!
Posted by  wittness  on 2009-11-07 16:21:58 
  
grr, i hate it when people do that!!!! i mean, i'm straight, but still - WHAT MAKES GAYS AND BIS DIFFERENT THAN US?! ppl need to realize it's actually segregation, in a harsh way. they can suck it up and go fuck themselves, really. the heart goes where it goes, and no gay religion rules (no pun intended XDD) will ever change tht. Din't they say the Lord is forgiving, and would understand and comfort all? Yet, somehow being gay or bisexual is excluded, and is marked as a sin? grr, it PISSES ME OFF! no offense, screw ur family. if i was you, i'd've seriously told them that.
Posted by  bookworm14  on 2009-11-08 14:44:40 
  
No offense taken bookworm. My family is just very strong in the faith, and i dont hold them against it for i was taught the exact teachings...only thing thats different is i'm the bi one in the family. they dont exclude me or even judge me. all they do is tell me that its a sin in which i can be forgiven for, but not realizing that this is really who i am, and trying to completely change a person is much harder then just being completely into my faith. But i do like your encouragement ;).thanks Booky!!(you dont mind me calling you that do ya?)
Posted by  wittness  on 2009-11-08 18:48:41 
  
I am bisexual myself.
My mother, happened to find out, by reading one of my AIM messages I accidentally left up.
In my opinion, I think it is worth the shock of your family knowing about you.
Yes, it may suck, having them nag, and bug, and tell you you are doing something wrong.
But, atleast you aren't keeping secrets, which may have eventually tore you up inside.
Atleast you know, that your family, that may not approve of you, and may try to change you, still loves you, despite the fact that you are "sinning".
Of course, in my opinion. Love is Love. With man and woman. Man and Man. Or Women and Women. It is still love. Not Sin.
And if you read the bible, it says we should all love eachother, no matter.
So Gays, Bisexuals, Lesbians, and/or Transvestites/genders, should not be disriminated against, becuase of religion, or any other matter.
They are himan beings, with feelings and hearts,
most likely 10x bigger than any others, because they have learned to love more than what was "meant".
Atleast, they are who they are. And love themselves, no matter.
Posted by  Stacia  on 2009-11-09 17:13:56 
  
i am bisexual as well 24 years...i live in a community where u are expected to be a man's man type guy....whr a man is not a man till his married wit a yard full of kids....i c a lot of me in ur upbringing. i was the model child. my parents loved to show me off to other parents, straight A student, obedient disciplined. up to this point i know that i dnt want anyone to find out that i am....i tink some suspect it but since i have always dated women they never say anything.

i spent so much time making sure that i appear straight and in the end it fucks with your mentality. when r u ever gon be happy? even when m in a relationship i have to constantly remind myself that i am a man she is a woman....!

its a messed up world we live in
Posted by  theguy  on 2009-11-10 07:56:51 
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