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Am I selfish? I used to believe I was the least selfish person I knew (I guess maybe that is my fault right there). Now I am not to sure.

I am not saying that I have become extremely selfish, but I am beginning to wonder and question some of my motives. I have always put my family and friends needs before my own. I am a great listener and I often have people coming to me with their problems. Not that I mind, I am more than happy and love to help all that I can.

But recently I have been thinking a lot about D. I miss talking him. I miss the friendship we had. I miss him, period. We used to be really good friends (or at least I thought). Now we do not even talk. I want more than anything for that friendship back. I realize we both left college and needed some time to figure things out, but now I wish we could have gone through the experiences together. Maybe I want this friendship for all the wrong reasons. Maybe that is why we do not have a friendship right now. Because I was selfish...

~ A part of you has grown in me, and so you see, it is you and me together forever. Never apart, maybe in distance, but never in heart.~

There is a piece of D in me. Because of D I found a piece of me. I grew because of D. He has changed my life. He helped shape it. I would not be here if it were not for D. I will never forget my wonderful friend and I hope someday we can pick up where we left off.

My dearest true friend, I am so sorry. I wish I could go back and change things, but I cannot. Whatever happens please remember you will always be able to find a friend in me.