It seems to me that nothing good can come of this life of mine. I've been abused, neglected, abandoned, and destroyed...sadly, that's not the end. So many people can say, "Look at the bright side, honey" or "Sure, you could be better, but you could also be worse," really what does that mean? Seriously, what is "looking at the brightside" going to do for my situation? What in the world can "just getting over it" do for me?
Two weeks ago I had a miscarriage. A baby died in me.
How do I just get over something like that?! How do I find the bright side of that?!
I guess you could take into account that I am no where near ready to have a child in my life, but I am capable to care for one. You could also take into account that it was an unplanned pregnancy, but I was ready to take on full responsibility. But how on earth do you tell someone who has had a baby die inside of her, "it could be worse?" Seriously!!! How much worse could it get? The baby is dead, there's nothing else that can be worse than the death of a baby.
Perhaps I am just not meant to be a mother. I've always been told that I couldn't bear children due to the scar tissue that was left behind from a child molester. I never planned on having kids...even if it was because I knew I couldn't have them. It just doesn't make sense. Why would something so miraculous (me getting pregnant against all odds) be taken away from me without any warning?
I believe in God, but honestly where was he in this? How can he allow things like this to happen? Where is he now?
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