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New questions about that wonderful guy. Lets call him Andrew.
Andrew means the world to me. Whenever I need someone, I know he'll be there for me. No matter what. The question is Do I really trust him in everything or just in a friendship. I believe that I trust him no matter what, but the question has been brought up about a more intimate trust. I will never lose my friendship with Andrew, never. I will not let it happen, nor will he. I am quite attached to him but am I too attached? No matter what, it is going to hurt. I know I have already went too far emotionally. He cares for me in ways no one else has. I don't know how to leave something that I have craved all my life. I know that I will never be able to keep him for my own. How do you adore someone so much and know that you can't take them home. Just for a talk, just for a bowl of popcorn and a movie, just to sit there and stare at. No matter what he will always choose her and there is nothing I can do about that. Not that I would EVER ask him to leave anyone for me. But is that why I adore him so? Because I have nothing to lose? I don't have to commit to him, I don't have to be around him all the time, I don't have to have disagreements with him. There is no commitment. There is no risk. There is no pain. There are no expectations. Maybe if there were a risk, I would feel differently about him. Maybe I would pull the same crap as I do with other guys. Maybe thats what makes this feel so different. Because it is.
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Posted by whoiam on 2007-10-16 15:17:19 | Rating: | Views: 85
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