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I've spent some time looking for answers online although I'm sure that's not where the answers are. As my husband lays in bed sleeping I'm torn again between the wife I want to be and who I really am. Who I really am is a woman that's been married for almost 2 years and having an affair for more than half of that time.
I would never have gotten married if I wasn't happy and didn't think it would work. We'd been together for a long time and there was nothing forcing us. We shared a home but no debt, no children, no permanent connection. He was everything I wanted and the person I could see the rest of my life with. I thought the changes that were occuring were part of us growing up and we were growing together.
Then I met W. Just a guy that showed me attention I didn't know I was missing. We spoke some before I got married but we were just friends. I should have seen how going out of the way to see him was a sign that I wasn't truly happy. I remember wondering if he would ask me if I had a boyfriend and he never did. The look on his face when I told him I was leaving that weekend to get married made me happy and sad at the same time. It made me feel good that someone would have approached me..that someone still thought I was attractive.
It all should have ended there.
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Posted by whoaminow on 2009-11-02 00:14:16 | Rating: | Views: 11
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