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Ok I had all these other ideas for blogs today.....wonder why I can't remember a one anymore...  
But thought one lil one about what you all read already might be nice
OK so I get in my car and text KP the empty text message like I always do.
My way to say I am able to talk if she wants. As she was having chemo and radiation and testing and all that I thought not too likely she was going to call. She would be in bed
Then 3/4 of the way to work my phone rings the ring I assigned to KP
I answer smiling already
After some small talk and a check from me how the day went she asks how soon will I be at work?
I say another 10 minutes, so I am told text her and then go to thoughts but not her blog..
So I get in, settle in, text her and my office phone rings a minute or two later
At first I thought i was getting a song from the kids...but it was 10PM and they are in bed
But then she has me read what you all read
I dropped the phone as I finished
I dreamed how I would react, and frankly I am more numb then anything
So is she
Listen, the part that no one can control, the part that only she and I shared from my end(I obviously have told very few people on this end the story) is done. Now the heart wrenching part comes.
This will not be easy and will not begin this minute, this day, this week or this month.
First I want KP to let this all soak in. She gets a rest of her life to worry about and plan. I am letting her enjoy that now.
There will be plenty of time to plan the rest, and that is a good feeling.
Oh and more more thing, from both of us, a small favor you can do us both because I know you all care about us.....let people talk, let them say the wrong thing, it is ok.
Life as we all see now is too precious to fight about all this BS
Out on the ocean sailing away
I can hardly wait
To see you come of age
But I guess we'll both just have to be patient
'Cause it's a long way to go
A hard row to hoe
Yes it's a long way to go
But in the meantime
Before you cross the street
Take my hand
Life is what happens to you
While you're busy making other plans...John Lennon
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Posted by whiteknight on 2008-04-04 10:19:00 | Rating: n/a | Views: 85
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