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Who said I was rationale????
This post has nothing to do with this question, but this morning KP asked me why when any rationale man would leave and give up I stay?  The first answer that came to my head was what the heck gave you the impression I was rationale?
But the title fits this post and if honey. you want to explain this better in that I am sure many will think I have lost my mind feel free to commen and explain what I am trying to say in the rest of this post....you may be able to say this better.....
The other day I was having a talk with the wife about things.
I said that she never seems to have any intrests of her own.  She never drags me to see a friend of her's that I have to "play"with the husband while they talk.  She has no friends she sees.   She never drags me to a play or a flkower show or an antique show or any of that.  She never goes!
I am almost telling her that a slight bit of annoyance would be nice and might help our marriage if anything can(but more on that later in this post).  Nag me. Make me go places that I do not want to go to do couple things.  Tell me that you want to see that latest chick flick !  
I will likely hate it, but at least it beats you on the couch watching another mindless piece of garbage on TV !  Yes we can;t talk at the movies, but maybe we could stop on the way home to get coffee and talk about how good or bad the movie was or maybe even the movie might bring up a point that we can talk about.
And I can hear the many camps out there screaming.
Camp 1# : Men who are asking if I have gone mad and saying that I should be glad.  Annoyance is better than boredom I would tell them.
Camp2#" Women who say that if I got what I wanted I would complain.  Try me !
Camp 3#: "Tell her, not a blog!!!"
Been there, done that and bought the mug.  It did nothing.

Now she tried to day to plan an outing.
We went to an art show in a neaby town that was put on by a local artist.  Was Ok.  I mean not my speed but we got out of the house alone.  Frankly thing it was an attempt so I will not put it down.  But then she blows the mood by losing her glasses which now makes me have to retrace her steps and be the person saving her helplessness.

Another note is that on a few occasions she tried to grab my hand.
I love holding hands
I would walk the mall as a 20ish guy and get jelous of the people holding hands in the mall walking, in love.
I felt zip today.
Maybe it is the scar tissue from years of hurt and nonromance and her not doing it....who knows...but that hurt that I felt so little as she held it.
You all may be right it may be too far gone and over.
I will wait and see, as I want to make sure she gets a soft landing when I go, but I think it is alot more when than if anymore.

Happy Easter all
Posted by whiteknight on 2008-03-22 18:17:32 | Rating: | Views: 130


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Posted by
chebtastic1
on 2008-03-23 08:13:24
 
I know exactly what you mean. Right before me and hubby split, we had our last arguement I guess - well, the last one where we sort of made up. He wanted a hug and he clung to me, but I felt nothing. Even though I knew before then I was gonna leave, it was still a really sad moment for me...the moment I properly realised that after 7 years...I felt nothing for this man anymore. It does hurt.
Incidentally...the song you posted was beautiful - what's it called and who's it by?
Hang in there...all will be okay, one way or another xxx
 
 

Posted by
GhostOfDerekD0min0
on 2008-03-24 09:58:18
 
Camp#1 guy here: if nagging wins out over boredom for you, that's understandable. But you could always take up some other hobby to fill that space - guitar, sudoku, gardening, ship-in-bottle building....
 
 

Posted by
prelude2it
on 2008-03-28 10:53:27
 
Your wife is trying, you have to give her that. I think if you both could truly try it could work but you would have to make a decision to only want her. When you have a glimpse of what could be it's hard to see what is and make it work.
 
 

Posted by
whiteknight
on 2008-03-28 11:07:07
 
Prelude I agree
But see the ing is this, and if you really read, as I know it is hard to do given the volume, the whole story on my blogs of the wife/KP/me, you will see that I gave her every chance in the world to win me back. I even gave up what I wanted, KP was coming, to give her a fair shake.
She blew it and continues to
 
 

Posted by
Peaches_Cream
on 2008-03-31 14:01:02
 
Your marriage is all but over except for you leaving. Your heart isn't in it, it is with another woman. If you wanted to maintain your marriage you would put a bit more distance between the other woman. Not make yourself so accessible to her. This situation is angering me as having had this done to me in a similar situation I have lost respect for you and the other woman even though I don't know you.
 
 

Posted by
whiteknight
on 2008-03-31 14:25:11
 
Peaches: I see you have read the entire story as I see your comments on a few posts and I think that I need to respect your opinion as valid. Do I agree? NO
But do I think this is a baseless opinion? No
 
 

Posted by
DifficultSoul
on 2008-03-31 18:46:26
 
It is hard what you are going through.
I have been through it..I am still kind of going through it.
Guilt- already tries to steal our lives, when a marriage is all but dead, but for the burying.
It is very hard to live in a marriage, that you wish, was over.
Staying, -some would say was noble.
But lying, to someone about how we truly feel, is worse than any divorce that you may struggle through.
Not only you, but, she, are settling for a loveless marriage.
Or should I say, passionless?
I know you love her, and care deeply for your wife.
I see the anger you have at her, blaming her for your feelings...mad..because you think if she changed, you could finally be all in love with her.
There is nothing she could do, to make you fall in love with her.
There is just different ways, that we love people.
Be honest....it is always the best policy.
 
 


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