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OK, before anyone reads another line I need to give a warning or two:
1) If you fall on either side of the religion spectrum feel free to read but please do not comment. This post is not about your religious beliefs or hate for religion. I am a Catholic that goes to Mass every Sunday and I would say I sort of fluctuate in the middle of that bell curve w/ the rest of us...
2) No matter your belief, if you are a "middler" like I am, this is about more than that....Ok that said......... Yesterday I am in Mass, listening to the priest and like most times my mind wanders, sparked by something he said. I started to think if you really take the spirit of the rules I was raised with I am sinning in that I have now given my heart to another woman. So in the eyes of the church I have done wrong, and I need to confess that. But can I really do that in that I can not say I will not do it again.
So can you be sorry for something you know you will do again?
Can you feel that you wish you were not in this situation, wish you did not have to hurt others in a deep emotional way(even if they have no idea they are being hurt, or that they will be hurt in the future), and feel bad and sorry that you need to do this yet you do it?
I mean the answer I know many will come to is that if you feel that way then stop doing the wrong...but what if the wrong is also a right?
On one side you have a wife, a son(step son but I have explained why I use that term), that love me and need me and have done little wrong.
I mean this blog is filled w/ me saying all she has done that I wish she could change, but has she really done anything wrong?
On the other side we have a woman that loves me and I love her and she would rekindle everything that I want to have back in my soul and heart. A person that makes me feel alive, a man, fun, my old self, the self I am in my car when I sing to the radio and no one is looking, the self that does silly stuff, the self that makes me want to be a better man...
you know ladies a side bar here while it is in my mind: nagging is not good but also letting him fall into bad habits is no good either, find a balance....
the self I am deep inside.
So to turn the old saying on it's head, two rights are making a wrong in a way.
So my question is can you do something you feel bad doing, confess/apologize/ admit it to someone that you trust, say that you know that part of it is wrong, say that you feel haertfully sorry, yet do all that and it be valid if you know you will do it again?
Sorry if this did not make sense or rambled or went too deep. And if some level headed Catholic priest reads this and wants to answer, feel free, but please all the born agains and haters that sit on the edges of the bell curve, stay out of it! |
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Posted by whiteknight on 2007-10-22 07:21:34 | Rating: | Views: 138
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Oh my gosh! I could have written this post myself. What if something that is considered a sin is something that we know we can't give up? Do we ask for forgivness for the sin itself but we know as a whole it's not something we can give up?
I am going through this same exact thing (well not exact) but I'm going through a lot of questions myself that have me wondering a lot of the same things you just wrote about.
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Posted by Whitters
on 2007-10-22 07:27:34
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My view is that that is between you and God. You have to work that one out for yourself. If you can live with what you are doing and how you go about it, then that is up to you. This goes too deep to ask someone out here to make a decission like that for you. I can see where you are coming from, and that would be a difficult decission to make, but on the other hand it isn't that cut and dry. You have a lot of people involved and lots of consequences that are possible, not all good ones. I guess basically what I think is that if you are done with you marriage you need to get out, then take a breather, then you can deal with what you an KP may or may not have. Keeping in mind she has a lot on her plate and has to go through her own sorting of issues: family, kids, health, and you. There is a lot you guys have to deal with before you can "live happily ever after". Ya know? Not trying to be ugly about this or anything, just being honest and upfront. I wish you all the best and may God bless you all in these and other matters that may cross your path.
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Posted by bookgirl
on 2007-10-22 07:41:22
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IF it is love, then so be it. You sometimes have to sacrifice something to get something better.
If you love another, then it may cause hurt to the one your with but isnt it making the wrong worse if your not honest enough (with yourself and her), to let her go, set her free to find her own happiness, as you feel you have found with this other person?
Whichever you decide, good luck to you and all involved.
Namaste
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Posted by scotslad60
on 2007-10-22 08:12:31
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I kind of think you know the answer yourself. There's always a little voice in your head telling you but sometimes we just don't want to listen. I wish you peace of mind eitherway.
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Posted by overthehillandfar...
on 2007-10-23 00:21:33
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