OK this might be intresting and it might work the way I think it will, or it might really be a one or two shot deal.  To explain the title I need to back up a bit.  KP and I have had a rough week, much much more rough for her I am sensing.  As most weeks are recently.  Anyway.......We have had a few talks about if we have a future, if I am ready for her or if I need to sow oats once I leave my wife, if I am seeing her as someone I need to save vs some one I love, if love has not deepened but simply seems that way as maybe I have a "hero complex" and need to save her so I have added that on top and now it just feels deeper,,,etc.  PLUS there is the 1000000 lb gorilla in the room, her health.  AND after all of this she may still even stay where she is if she gets healthy   OK so into all this came a few honest questions, revelations, comments and things from me where  I was less than sensitive to her feelings.   Ok I was an ass, I admit it.   So we decided that maybe since she will be away for a bit in December...the why is her story to tell or not...we would take 4 week break starting now and I look deep in my soul and make sure that she is what I want.  So I am.  Here is where can help if you want.  I am asking for questions from the informed. best if you read us both.  Give me things to think about in my month and at times, at least once a week, I will take what I have thought about all week, or if I get a good idea myself or a good question here I will do it then...and at the end of  the month  KP and I will talk, I will tell what I have decided.  I hope that this will not get boring.  I will try to not repeat myself.....so ask away and I will babble away I guess....starting this Friday