Poor men wanna be rich
rich men wanna be king
and the king is not satisfied till he rules everything...Springsteen
The Great American disease is that we want things we can not have..Artie Lange
.......In a world where what we want is only what we want until it is ours...Train
The last few days, weeks, months....I have thought about the whole KP and me thing
Why do I want her?
Why do I think this will work?
Do I only want her because she not what I have, an upgrade if you will, and once I get her it will be no better?
And I have decided that this is not the case. I love this woman alot, I see now that I am desireable. I did not see that when I first met KP. She tells me all the time that she is sure taht if she let me go, let me find "local happiness" that I could do so pretty easily. Maybe she is right. But it would be hamburger and not steak.
I made a very bad mistake years ago that in a world where I needed to find and marry a cutom made women, I settled for off the rack.
In the last 2 years KP and I have had good times, bad times, long talks, and all I laid out back a few posts ago..we have probed and proded and looked into each other's deep dark secrects. I doubt there is much about me that she does not know. yet I still love her, and I know she loves me.
This is not being greedy and wanting to rule everything or only wanting her until she is my wife...
I love her
I always will
Leave me alonbe in a rain storm w/ no good TV and you see what happens LOL
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