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As I turn 45 I see that birthday cake in front of me.
As I blow out the candles I look at my wishes
I wish for……..
KP to get healthy. There is no bigger wish I have no matter how the whole thing turns out between us
KP to come and be my wife
That somehow, some way, no one gets hurt in all this.
My wife finds the confidence and strength that she has buried deep. It is in there, she just need to find it
My son keep growing to be the man he seems to be growing into. No matter what happen in the future I will always feel that fate/God/karma/life put me in this place at this time with him and his mom so that I can get him to this place.
That the other people I know with cancer that beat it stay that way.
That my wife stops smoking. Given that I am watching one woman in my life fight cancer and I have watched others, to watch my wife just keep spinning the chamber and sticking the gun to her head in this game of Russian Roulette she is playing with cancer bothers me.
A way that people smarter than me can figure out how to end this war in Iraq. I am all for the war if it gets us somewhere and I am still of the mind that given what we thought we knew it was a good idea, but now we need to figure out how to end it without making things worse.
Health for all my nieces and nephews
My parents stay as healthy as they are. I am not ready to move up that step to the top generation. I always think that once one of your parents are gone, you stop being the kid and have to step up a rank.
That if this is a crisis, that it truly is a mid and not a ¾ or 5/8 crisis (LOL)
That when I make the leap to go that I have the courage to stand up to the firestorm I will get from family and friends. Everyone wants to see you happy and live your life till you decide to make a decision they do not see as good and then you need to fall back in line.
That a year from now most of these wishes will not be needed as they either came true or the issue is past.
The Yankees to win the World Series in their last year in the stadium and I get to see it live…listen it is my birthday so I get to be greedy
That by 46 I am blowing out those candles looking at KP and my 3 step children and then kissing my new wife, with my supportive family watching and that is followed by dinner and dancing with KP in New York
3 candles per wish….that works
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Posted by whiteknight on 2008-04-03 10:09:56 | Rating: | Views: 174
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Wish away baby.
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Posted by KP
on 2008-04-03 10:18:30
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Happy birthday WK!!!!!!!!!
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Posted by Mamacita925
on 2008-04-03 10:30:07
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Happy Birthday! ;)
I truely think that your wife uses you for her confidence and strength and as long as you hang around, she will not get the help she needs.
I Dont think this is a crisis..just a life change..kind of like a new chapter in the book which is your life.
Your family will come around and support you in the end. Blood is thicker than water and in these situations they can usually see the other side. It takes two to make a relationship work. If you have outgrown her, then the best thing to do is move on. There is no such thing as painless, but there will be peace in the end.
46 years old, is old enough to know what you want and deserve what you want. You only live one life and there is no promise of tomorrow..live that life to the fullest. While I think we have a responsibility to not intentionally hurt others in a callous way, we are not responsible for the casualties along the way. The way I see it, you have given your life with your wife every possible chance. The only thing you are doing now is prolonging the inevitable.
I hope that before you turn 46 you have made the move toward your happiness. It is a big burden to have trying to keep everyone else happy all the time. Trying to make sure everyone else is okay, while you are not is a difficult task. I think the one lesson we all can learn from this situation is that we are responsible for our own happiness. You can not fill up everyones cup, you need to concentrate on your own. Good luck! shemelts
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Posted by shemelts
on 2008-04-03 10:57:39
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i turn 45 this june,,, lovely blog,peace
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Posted by bjm1
on 2008-04-03 11:17:14
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Happy birthday...you're five months older than me. Hope all your dreams come true this year, as mine have.
Congrats x
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Posted by geordiedreamer
on 2008-04-03 12:46:30
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Happy happy birthday baby.. sorry I could not resist, it is in my nature.
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Posted by circe
on 2008-04-03 13:45:39
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Thanks all.....
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Posted by whiteknight
on 2008-04-03 13:55:35
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WK~ I hope all of your wishes and wildest day dreams come true. I have enjoyed each and ecery moment of getting to know you!! Happy birthday my friend...
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Posted by nikilynn1113
on 2008-04-03 14:48:15
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so would you like a present sent?? From Melbourne ...... i can't help you out with Melebourne though!! LOL
Happy Birthday !!
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Posted by EasyToSay
on 2008-04-03 15:44:18
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belated happy birthday!!! :) I do hope all your wishes come true, especially it being a mid life crisis for you and not 5/8th ;)
Lots of love...
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Posted by angelwings
on 2008-04-04 03:01:46
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happy birthday WK. hope ur wishes come true
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Posted by lastblastkl
on 2008-04-04 21:34:47
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