This is another "Whiteknight explains something then applies them to a point" blogs, so hang in there through the set up.
  Was again cleaning out the TIVO and ran through the sitcoms.
I love this new show THE BIG BANG THEORY.  I know far too many people like those guys and in a sense I have been accused of being the main character a bit. My common sense and people skills, especially with women have stunk at times while I did well in terms of intellectual stuff.   But not the point of this blog.
They mentioned an experiment that one of my college professors would refer to all the time:
Take a cat and put it in a sound proof box with a vile of poison that is conneted to a random timer.  It will release the poison into the air of the box at some unknown time.  Close the box.
Until you open that box again the cat in essense is both alive and dead at the same time since you do not know actually if it is alive or dead.
Before PETA comes down on me, no one actually ever did this to a cat.  It was a way that a renowed physicist explained problems he had with another's work.  My professor used it in an ethics class in relations to decisions.

Two months ago a big box in my life got put in a closet.
The box labled ME & KP
It hurt to do that, but I agreed with what we were doing.  Maybe we needed a break and a big decision needed to come after we both really tried at home.  

I am now seeing the cat is dead
KP has decided that it is
We both need to move on
I hope she stays on thoughts.com, she said she will
This may hurt us both and we may end up hurting each other as we move on but I am seeing that what was there is not there anymore and that I need to move on...
I need to start a long process to get on with life
a life that KP is not ever going to be a part of by her choice
I will misstep and some will not like what I do, but I need to start steering a new course.
Seems I may have already hurt her in being honest but that is the first of all the mistakes I will make.
Thanks and I am staying here, I like the people