"Most men lead lives of quiet desperation and go to the grave with the song still in them". HDT ...
Last nite I had a very intresting time with KP. 
I will let her tell the story of the details and her feelings about what happened...but we got a point where we were talking about our lives together, our wedding, honeymoon, what we will name the kids. 
I know this all sounds a bit childish in a way given what we know could happen but it was fun to dream and think maybe a dream may come true.  It also made me see why i love her, she gives me the chance to maybe make it to the grave with only a few notes left on a song, rather than a collection that rivals the Ring Cycle by Wagner.  
Some of her dreams are beyond my abilities, baby I hate to tell you this but not too much chance I will ever be able to ride a motorcycle at all, never mind with you on it also.  (poor balance).  But many of her dreams are my dreams and visa versa...and we also add to each other's dreams.  
  My wife for all her good points is not a dreamer. 
She never dreamed of her own wedding day even and I have met few women that can say that.
I have seen a dream or two come alive, in fact w/o giving away the story, seeing the account of my dream happening is what began the talk we had last nite.   
And even if I never see many of my dreams come true, even if I never get to kiss KP, or hug her, or say I love you to her in person, or have her hold my hand, or live the much less simple dreams we have together...even if all those never come true, a man who as a boy had dreams as lofty as being President, and walking on the moon has already lived one big one through you KP, that is that I got to be the hero in the love songs you hear.
  This bad circumstance that at least postponed us meeting(found out this week she might have been here for her planned visit this week had not she become ill) has given me a bigger gift, the gift of being your hero, your voice when you can not speak, your shining knight on a white stallion that comforts you when you are sad and makes you laugh when the world gets too heavy.  And for that I will be able to cross one more song off that songbook,,thank you