While we have been in shadow time I have tried to keep the KP and I posts to a minimum, in fact I have tried to not post any. 
I did that for a few reasons, not the least of which is that when you do not talk as much there is less that happens, but before the fog settled in and we started the shadow of waiting I had a post I was thinking about, so I decided that maybe I would write it and post it finally.
 

There is a country song that is called I Love the Way You Love Me.   NQRW was into country music when I met her but now seems to have stopped liking it (part of something I will one day post on), but when she did I heard that song alot.  In fact I may have even seen the singer in concert as one of the many times I took her to see a concert of her type of music.
It talks about how the woman does all these great things for the man.
In the years sonce I met KP I have changed alot and in one way was the way I love.  I love deeper and harder and more passionately.  
NQRW got a few cards when I first met her, but never responded in any real way so I stopped...I have been told more than once that I need to stop filling KP's email up with cyber cards and I can tell you the current postage from the US to Aus for all the cards I have sent her for real.
She makes me want to do more. 
I care how I dress because she cares how I dress and that makes me care more.
She makes me want to make sure I look my best, speak my best, is my best critic and corrects me when I am wrong.  She "nags", a better word I wish I had, because she cares.
She makes me want to be a better man.
She makes me love her more because I know that what she is to me is worth the effort.
I love the way she makes me love her.

Now again I know I am in the shadows.  
The purpose of this all is to have me work on my marriage.  That is all well and good but sometimes the caged bird must sign and I must let out the love I have.  I have said it before and I will again, this passion, this heart, this emotion was and if she ever found "the tap" is all barrelled up for NQRW to tap into. 
She was given 10 years, she did not tap in.  
She was given a second chance by me when the reality of KP hit me about 2 years ago, she did not tap in .
I came to her months later telling her I was unhappy, she did not
tap in.
Life gave her 2 years of time, she did not tap in.
And KP gave her/I another chance, she still has yet to tap in.
KP has bathed in the passion I have, NQRW seems unwilling to find that river.