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I would love to tell you all I just came back from some Tibet temple where I spent a week learning the secrect of life and that is why I have been gone, but that is not why....I guess life has just become so crazy that I have let this slip...and also it did not help that I started and wrote the entire Thanksgiving Day blog 3x only to have it get destropyed all three times for various reasons...So here goes w/ an updtae: went to my parents for dinner all was great and the wife heard she was great....went to her parent's home for dinner the next night and she got torn apart and I had had enough so I told them all in a nice polite tone that all her self esteem and motivation issues were their fault and that all the crap they laid on her I need to now shovel off...she liked the idea I said it and wished she had but hated that I did it...she admitted she buries her emotions...when asked for a question for me to think about for therapy(and yes for here but the wife has no idea about here)she came up w/ not a one....met w/ a lawyer that made me feel better in some areas and worried in others...went t marriage therapy and I got crying wife again but then I must have hit a button because she became the angry one and I liked that...went to a bookstore to look into a book the lawyer suggested and the Christmas music mixed with what I was doing and a few other things in my head all made it that I had to walk out and sit in my car and cry for 10 minutes...I have more than once been shopping for the wife and thought about why am I bothering..... SUGGESTION:NEVER THINK ABOUT DIVORCE AROUND THIS TIME OF YEAR...I have generally just lived my life as it has presented itself the last 2 weeks....I will write again and more often again....oh and for those that worry KP is fine. She has not posted in a bit and while I joked about the whole thing w/ me and the anscence I know that her issues make her not posting more worrisome. She is fine and yes, we are talking again. I agree that I need to really think this all over, and decide. I just think that if I had had to do it w/o talking to her I would have started to sound like some bad 80's movie about teenage angst.....plus I love the woman and not hearing from her is just too hard
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Posted by whiteknight on 2007-12-04 05:49:53 | Rating: | Views: 56
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