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Leave the past in the past

I'm an emotional girl.  When I'm happy I'm really happy.  I want to share my happiness with the world.  I want the world to be as happy as I am.  And it doesn't take much. 
When I'm sad though its rough.  Sometimes I don't even know why I'm sad.  Something sets it off of course but that's not usually the real reason I'm upset.  I try not to share that with the world.  For some reason it isn't socially acceptable to blame the world for your problems.  So, I try my hardest to get happy again.  Somehow that is when you figure things out.  You really understand yourself more when you aren't singing the blues.  It would be much easier if we would realize it when we are sad so that it doesn't last as long.  At least for me this is how it goes.  I get sad and I start hating myself and wollowing in self pity.  I think that if that thing that made me sad would have just not happened or if I could some how fix it back to the way I want it I'll feel better again.  But that is never the case.  I start feeling better because time has passed or something else that I want to happen comes along and makes me forget for a while about what got me upset in the first place.  But if I could just sit and think objectively at the situation to begin with I could feel better much faster.  It isn't necessarily the fact that you can fix things its just an understanding that you need to come to. This is an ongoing habit of mine that I just can't seem to kick.  Leave the past in the past.  You can not change what has happened you can only learn from it.  This is something that we hear all the time but why don't we listen to it. The only way to let go of something is to accept it for what it is.  I'm learning and in time hopefully emotions won't get the best of me and I will learn that closure is a state of mind that I have control over.  These are the things you realize after the fact.  

Posted by whattheheck on 2007-10-19 00:35:29 | Rating: n/a | Views: 68


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Posted by
karigds
on 2007-10-19 00:54:04
 
i just like you so people like us need just to rock on!
 
 

Posted by
Dani
on 2007-10-19 01:01:02
 
Sounds kinda like biopolarness!
Which rox ass!
 
 


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