How does everyone see themselves when they look in the mirror??

its good that no-one knows me here, im sure after ive published more blogs people will get to know me but right now im liking the fact that no-one knows me, the reason being, what im going to write right now is a huge part of me, its something that affects my personality everyday but if i bring it up with my friends it seems like a very strange conversation.
None of you are thinking i am asking for attention because none of you know me, you are not thinking that i want you to disagree with me because once again none of you know me. you know i am not asking you to say "no no, you are beautiful" because none of you know what i look like. So you all know i just want to get it off my chest....thankyou for listening....

So how do i see myself????
I look in the mirror when i am standing on my own and i see a pretty young lady with a curvaceous body which is all hips (which is always good). I see a smile that beams from cheek to cheek. I see a pair of fantastic boobs that havent sagged atall (which i hope will stay like this forever) I see the most gorgeous hair in the world (but i see that when i stand next to anyone cos i ahve to face facts my hair has always been my strong point lol).

But what do i see when i stand next to others, i see a completely different person, my looks change with a click of a finger, i no longer feel like the most beautiful girl in the room, I dont see a curvy figure anymore, i see a fat lump that really needs to go on a diet.

I have always been told i am beautiful by my closest people. But wouldnt they be biast??

You may wonder why i am writing about something so small and pathetic but looks are a huge part of life. Even though personality is the most important part of someone. In todays society if you dont look good then you feel like nothing important. I feel ugly 75% of the time.

I am vain, confident, outgoing, bubbly, i can hide my insecurities. But do my looks make the best of me??? Im sure they do.

so how do you feel when you look in the mirror??