I feel so adrift.
I'm way moody, and I'm gaining a ton of weight...I had to buy pants a size larger, and some shirts, too. I've still been able to wear my rings, but not always comfortably.
I'm feeling really distant from Rob. Passionless, angry, and very very distant.
I don't really ever touch on our pivate intimacy level...but I'm about to dive into it, so be warned.

Normally, we can hardly keep our hands off each other. We've been trying that make love every other day pattern, to try to get pregnant. It's been hard to stick to, because we often go at it at least every day, if not more than once a day. How I have the stamina for it, I will never know.
Earlier today, right after we left church, I was all for a little slap and tickle before taking a nap, but we got in a couple arguments in the car (he wanted to drive, but it's my car, so I wanted to and he pouted his way into me letting him drive, and then there was nothing on the radio, and I wanted to listen to two songs on a cd, but before i could pop it in, he whined about not getting to check all the stations, and then he wanted to go into the fast food place, and I wanted to hit the drive through so we could get home faster...we went in, after listening to my songs, and more fuming and pouting from him. I almost cried. I'm picking fights and all kinds of upset and it's really frustrating. My internal clock is saying it's time to bail. I've never been in a relationship that's lasted this long without a breakup. Anyway, ever since then I just haven't felt like having sex at all. I thought we were going to make a go of it, anyway, before we took a nap, but he took an advil pm (normally he works at night and sleeps during the day) before I could ask him if he was in the mood. I've just been so frustrated with him...and now he's playing the game we were playing together all by himself, on our profile, and he's gone and made it so there are like no easy songs left for me to play and I'm still pretty lame at guitar hero. So now I'm going to have to make my own stupid profile. We were supposed to watch a movie.

I'm just so...moody. Yuck.