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So...I got an awesome job, working for the local railroad. I'm still in training, but I really enjoy what I do and there's a solid future in it.
My period's late again....
But so far, I haven't gotten a po
sitive test. This week, I'm into week seven of my cycle, which, based on my last...
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wee_star on 2008-05-07 23:41:30
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Surrogacy?
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So...
We [I?] made the decision to stop trying. To take the stress off and just let it happen.
Soon after, I got an awesome job.
And we've been watching Friends on DVD...and in seasons 4 & 5, Phoebe acts as a surrogate for her brother and sister in law.
And then today I read an...
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wee_star on 2008-04-08 23:40:38
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Friends
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So...
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My silly darling created his own blog.
HappilyMarriedMan.
He's so funny, and sweet.
We finally kicked roommate out. Last night was our first night without him, and it was lovely.
We slept with the doors open, so the cats could move about freely, and sleep with us if they wanted.
For...
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Posted by:
wee_star on 2008-04-01 19:00:00
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uggggggggggggghhhh.
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So.
I'm not pregnant.
Again.
It started on Sunday, and I've been aching since then.
I feel like giving up.
I feel like dying.
I could have sworn, would have bet money, that I was pregnant. 9 days late.
And then it shows up, and all I can do is cry.
We went to church, for...
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Posted by:
wee_star on 2008-03-25 22:30:59
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Days go by...
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It feels like forever since my last blog...wow.
So, we were house sitting, right? I think I mentioned that my mom and sister were meeting up with my dad in Mexico, since he's been working in Afghanistan and can't come back to the States til June? But in any case, we spent about ten days at my...
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wee_star on 2008-03-20 16:57:07
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St. Patty's
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Moving forward, in a better mood.
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So...Sunday I kind of judged Rob harshly, because I was really butthurt, and he had no idea what was going on with me. After I blogged, I got off the computer and sat on the couch and we talked. I told him how I was feeling, and that I was upset, and he apologized and truly had no idea that I...
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Posted by:
wee_star on 2008-03-12 03:25:08
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Feeling...blue
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I feel so adrift.
I'm way moody, and I'm gaining a ton of weight...I had to buy pants a size larger, and some shirts, too. I've still been able to wear my rings, but not always comfortably.
I'm feeling really distant from Rob. Passionless, angry, and very very distant.
I don't really ever...
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wee_star on 2008-03-10 04:22:41
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Updates!
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My computer just ate my freaking blog.
Otherwise, life is grand.
Rob and I are getting along famously, after working some things out.
Robbie and I are going to be friends again, and it doesn't feel like a threat to my marriage.
I'm sending that damned box tomorrow, hurt as it may,...
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wee_star on 2008-03-07 03:59:46
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What is love?
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I wrote this essay just over two years ago. Someone's search for the meaning of love has inspired me to post it. At the time, I didn't know my husband. I was a senior in high school, and actually quite lonely.
“Love is Oxygen”
(Ewan McGregor, Moulin Rouge, 2001)
Love...
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wee_star on 2008-03-05 03:28:09
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On and on and on I go!
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So...we're moving, probably. Just to somewhere else in the city, that's a one bedroom, so the rent will be less, and somewhere we can have our kitties legally. The place we're in doesn't allow pets, but our neighbor has cats that she lets run loose, so I'm not too concerned, but I'd like to not...
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wee_star on 2008-02-29 07:32:13
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wee_star on 2008-02-29 07:16:10
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ohhhhhhhh my gaaaaaaaaw
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So...Rob and I went away for the long weekend, starting with a beautiful dinner at my favorite restaurant on Sunday night. Then we went out to a bed and breakfast in the nearest town that's technically a suburb of our city. The place itself was lovely, but the hostess was a huge twat. And then...
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Posted by:
wee_star on 2008-02-20 04:51:00
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Anger and rage. Swearing.
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So, I haven't been working much, right, and to make ends meet, Rob and I took ina friend of a friend, as a roommate, expecting that he would be paying us $100/week for our spare bedroom, and extra for groceries.
Well, my mom gave us a ton of food, like cups of noodle and easy mac when I moved...
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wee_star on 2008-02-17 08:04:42
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Ragey.
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Today's youth really get under my skin.
Probably mostly because I'm strongly reminded of my own formative years.
I remember strongly desiring attention, being the only gothic kid in my junior high....then, the self mutilation that plagued me for years. I did it because therapy wasn't...
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wee_star on 2008-02-10 04:10:05
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Melancholia
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Well...yesterday was Rob's birthday. We're having a party on Sunday, that I'm absolutely not prepared for at all. My sleep has been really erratic, and I haven't gotten any of the necessary cleaning done. UGhhhhhhhhhhh.
I'm trying, almost vainly, to gather Robbie's things to put in a box to...
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Posted by:
wee_star on 2008-02-09 08:19:54
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Monday, Monday.
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Well...blech. Rob and I kind of got into a fight last night. We were watching the newest lifetime movie, "Girl, Positive" ...it's about a high school age girl who gets HIV. She gets it after having like...two partners, tops. And Rob, bless his heart, has very very conservative views on...
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Distressed. Explicit Content
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A lot of people wonder what the worst feeling in the world is.
Right now, for me, it's being in love with a past that is comp
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wee_star on 2008-02-01 15:48:38
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A bit more about me...
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Well...as a prelude to all this baby drama I've been going through, my husband and I decided that we wanted to start having kids before we got married. Really before we even got engaged. So I went off my birth control almost two months before we got married, and then once we were married, I...
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Posted by:
wee_star on 2008-01-26 07:18:23
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Obsessed...
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I can't seem to think about anything besides geting pregnant. I'm a woman possessed. It's made me angry and hurt, and I lash out at my poor husband all the time. I'm so depressed right now...I just want to give up and try to adopt. I know I'm young, and have "plenty of time", but I might not,...
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Posted by:
wee_star on 2008-01-24 07:06:29
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Period Day Three
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I've been married almost three months.
I've been off birth control for four and a half months.
I've been keeping track of my periods, minding my "fertile days", and taking appropriate measures to actually get pregnant.
I avoid ibuprofen, because I read somewhere it can affect...
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Posted by:
wee_star on 2008-01-22 17:00:45
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