yea i definatetly am. every time something good starts happening something else happens and fucks it up. every time. either life just hates me or i really am the most unlucky person ever. i swear that if a tree had to fall on someones house an kill them to ruin whatever i get going, then it would happen. basically im fucked with nancy. she got really upset and defensive when i was talking to her last night. the conversation ended with her saying "whatever. im going to bed. dont text back." great. you know how i wanted to ask her out? well last night she was talking about how she "just cant love people back" and all that stuff. im not one to try a relationship unless im pretty sure it will last longer than a couple months, and based on what she was saying, that wouldnt happen. i guess my mistake was telling her that i like her and had planned on asking her out untill she told me this stuff. talking to her friend, i found out that what nancy said isnt even always true. great. i feel awesome. like i said before though, i guess im just not going to ever find someone. ugh i hate this. i need to get high. hopefully tomorrow. thats when school starts back up. fun stuff.