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Ever meet someone that you wished you didn't? There were times where I did and the bad part of it is that I married them. How do you go from being love birds to bitter enemies over night? That's the question that I have been asking for 5 years with no answer, zero, zip, none. After everything that has gone on here I finally decided to clean out my closet and put things in their place (i.e people), I found that my health was affected, my anxieties were high and I had no one to vent to and that was enough fo rme. I started with my mom cause I thought she was the biggest stress that I had but the fact was as annoying as she was I was dead wrong. I thought that my marriage was rock steady after all of the trials we went through, and it felt good from the inside out for once but suddenly what I thought was repaired became damaged again. There were the arguments, misunderstandings, miles of wall cold and unresponsive at times and it made me realize that what I was facing would never go away. I should have known better but I allowed myself to believe that the fairy tale was indeed real, what did I really know? I wanted him to love me, need me, rely on me, see me but there was so much damage already done that there is no going back...........there are many things that I wish I could fix and carry out but now it's like trying to give the dead life (no chance of that, lol). You could say that I'm bitter and I would say half right but the sweet keeps you warm at night or at least it does me. I can't bear to think about the sun coming up in a few hours and I wish that it would tarry longer because thinking about a new day when I'm eating glass and likely to continue doing so holds no appeal for me.
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Posted by virgogem28 on 2009-09-11 06:16:07 | Rating: | Views: 12
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