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 i have been re-inspired and reminded why the fuck i am putting mysefl thru this!!!  after being surrounded by what feels like unwilling unknown non enthusiastic people our presance was graced with Dian Wilmot, she is a fantastic woman who is a PM at NT and the way she stood in front of us and spoke the passion she has after working there for so long was fantastic the respect she hold for other departments was inspiring and she jus reminded me of exactly what i want to do! i was lucky enough to be asked to give her a tour around the academy which was nice but for once in my life i was slightly nervous about it mainly because she is in the postition i want to be in and she is possibly someone who can help me get there.

today we had pyro class and it was soo much fun and it was all soo new and gave me stuff to learn and i want tolearn it aswell i thought it was going to be pretty crap but it was awsome!!!!!!! i really feel i can excell in pyro and im gonna study and try my best to be good at it.

 today was ok didnt start untill 2 AWSOME....so we had score to start with its was good we advanced to an orchestra score, was tough to follow think i will do some personal study on this subject......

we had to learn a speach i took now the time to do this as it wudnt sink in the evening before so in 10 mins i learned the general jist of it.  I think if i had actually had the mind to learn it last night with a bit of concentration.  think this was a valid exercise as i got to make a coffee at the same time so i got a coffee aswell yum yum yum , so we made paper work for our small scale shows and emailed it out hope it makes sence to everyone involved i must say i am looking forward to blocking and DSM stuff bing it on..

much love

 score reading is ging amazngly...i feel top of the class, thanks to Lee Blakely! he pushed us to learn score.

today we had some feedback sesion, it was ok although i was sitting listening to john talk about how to be an amazing team leader/stage manager and it clicked i new all this as i had just spent 8 weeks with the best stage manager i have worked with in the academy out of 6 people thats not a bad achievement for her!! so what he was saying jus made sence and enlightend me to how well our team had just been managed which was amazing!

in the afternoon today we had to do a mark up exercise which nearly killed me! if im honest i did not want to be there and certainly did not want to do a mark up!!!! it was as horrific as i imagined it to be..and i got frudtrated and emotional which over a mark up isnt a good thing, i am mentally and phisically exhausted and i appear to be uninterested and un-enthused!! which i am most certainly not!

i now have sat with a monologue infront of me for 2 hours and dnt no a word of it with out it in front of me!!!

 and relax.................

this has been such a fuking roller-coaster of love!!

i haunt had the time energy or brain power to reflect the past 5/6 weeks..its a bit annoying cause i think it is important for us to do this,  i dnt know ware to start or what to say so ill tackle this blog in subject as a pose to a timeline.

eddington street:
it felt like we were dumped and told to do it, there was a lot of stuff going on full day rehearsals most days the addition of TSM a giant set a demanding designer and director.......we spent so much time trying to explain the show and the subtle but obviously done scene changes to TSM and i cant begin to describe the frustration that built up inside me.  It almost felt like all this work was done for some else to take the but now glory, but i no we couldt opperate the show by ourself and were very glad of any help.  Being there watching my SM run the rehersal room was amazing although at the time i did get annoyed about some things she did, looking back on it i think she was very strict with the cast but now i can see that it was definatly called for, so well done! the way my DSM controlled her book and used post its for blocking and ques so they are easily moved around was encouraging, mainly bacause she was soo on her shit it was awsome, and with out  these two people this show would be a sham!!!

back to the groves:
SURPRISE...yeh us too, we were chucked back down the road and had to re-do the mark up and go back to small scale which was o be honest a head fuck for me.  we had pretty much got all our props by now....and the SM and DSM didnt drop there high level of amazingness once!!!!!!!

theatre royal:
wow this was it the show all this hard intense work for this my head is saying dont do it my body just does it because its already drilled to death on how the show runs................everything went kind of smoothly apart from one thing 72 HOUR WEEK wot the fuck is that about??? no, really what the fuck????? it is an open question.  i really strongly admire my DSM but if only she can keep control of her 'stress/emotions' a little bit but im telling u now if i was in the position to i would hire!

the stage and piano stage in orcgestra was just like a really long tech rehersal until the conductor (who has amazing hands) came on stage and demanded we continue as quick as possible because it was his rehersal....that was a bit of an odd thing for me to experience.

the second dress i was ready to walk out, it was hard for me to stay i forced myself to stay i had to i could leave my teamwe were tight by this point and every day getting tighter.....

the get out was done quickly with a bit of confusion about weather or not we were suppose to be there, so instead of getting shouted at my TSM myself and asm1 just left...it was an awkward situation..but was ok in the end i spose...my SM got to carried and precious over the set mainly large props/small set pieces.....i gues there a cut of point for the SM team during the get out/strike...

hi bruno! long time no speak so, opera one is busy PHEW finally get a rest after a long day, so its been non stop for us hence, no blog for ages! me and my counter part have been propping and queing crazy my dsm is a cue god!!!! well done to her, my SM is paper work/list mentalist!! only problems i have is comunication and its at the top and kinda works its way down to us and its annoying!!!

few probs in rehersal with people expecting more than we can physically offer, im tired really tired and cannot wait for sunday to chilax we are in non stop with no time for ourselfs.

think i should think of becoming a tesco checkout person thingy!!