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19th Febuary

AND STILLLL NO WORD FROM N4!

"I want out" i groaned on the phone to R on the other end. The managers cold shoulder is now wearing on me.
Seeing as N1 has left for 8 weeks at another store ( hes my store manager N4's fiancee) if he was here N4
wouldnt get away with it... N6...the super hot manager ( shame he's married) is running the store at the
moment... he's 1st Assistant. N6 has not noticed anything diffrent between N4 and I. Its beginning to anoy me.
Ive even gone as far as pulling out an ancient CV and to see how it can be changed.
Everyone i know has a Career ahead of them and proberly beginning to gain a retirement fund. I questioned R's
choice of words.
why is it that i can get on with N6, N1, A, X.. all the bloody decentish managers... well N6 is the best but
if i had to place them in order of favirotes.
it'll be...
*N6
*A
*N1
*X
*N4.
yes order of favirote, i have a minor crush so i tell my self its small on N6! N6 the married Manager.
hes sooooo flirty and a attractive bloke. I always have a thing for people who are taken and im not with
i suppose the more i want N6 the more i want blokes who are taken or married the more jelouse easy i get
when im with F and the more that happens the more likely im going to punch a girl out for talking to F.
thats not good.

I really fancy N6. i cannot help it.
i had a dream about N6 last night. the most sexual dream ever.
its a real shame all the decent men are married.
N6 and i had a great dinner, (we were on a date in the dream)
i think it was like the 3rd date because i would never go up there and
fuck this guy on the first date.
funnily enough if it happend in real life!!! hell i would!
so N6 and i had nice meal, nice wine, he drove me home.
i invited him in.
we were sitting on the sofa at my house, he put his arm around me.
then the next thing led to another, we kissed, and it sort of carried on.
just as a note here N6 is the same age as F.
N6 and i went upstairs and fucked it hard style. i dont know where my dad was but we used his bed
(very wrong) and N6 suprisingly used his belt to lightly whip my breasts... my god what i would give for
that to happen in real life... ill get over it.

I told my friend C at work this dream and asked her to shhh about it... nope didnt happen...it was her
last day anyway... * sigh * ill miss having laughs with her. c told N6, N4 got wind of it through X and
to bum it all out, N4 came up to me and said "had a dream about N6 then" bugger... shes gonna spread
it fast... i dislike N4... she two faced.
oh well.

enough writing now.
laterz xxxxx