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that is how it is going to be from now on... He stays away from me. and i am thinking about myself, in all this. as long as he is happy, i can manage live without him..maybe it will be hard in the begginig but who knows about tomorrow, will be a new day, the sun will be shiny (hopefully), the birds will sing (stuped crows cant the shut up!), and ah...never mind
Here I am again, typing empty words like an idiot, keeping the home my life is going to change from a second to another, WAKE UP, it won't!
not if i stay siting here with my fat ass on this comfortable chair..it wont change.
but what is the point of try to do something, if what i am thinking about doing won't change a thing, actually it will change lots of things, if i go and tell everyone what i think about them, and tell how angry im feeling righht now, lots of things will change... I won't be able to get out of home anymore; I will end up with the head lines of the news paper, i can even see that "the most idiot girl in the world" and right under it a picture and subtitles 'she thought she was doing right, when everything went wrong..' ; I won't have any friends..
WAIT! STOP!! STOP!! STOP!!
untill now i didn't say a word about any of my good friends, im talking about the good ones, not the ones each decide to have a crush on the same guy i do, and the ones that tell my secrets to every one.... no, im talking about the good ones!
four, they are only four. Yeah, i cant go oround and telling people my secrets to everyone, because they are called secrets so...live with it!
Nina, my friend from school, well i thank her so much, for all the support, all the ideas, all the talking and everything, she is a great person! 
Rudy, also from school, but who said we talk in school...no we dont, a word or another but nothing at all.. He been doing great of listening and giving me his shoulders to cry in the night... 
Right now i can't write the other two because i dont have names for them, and also I forget what i am about to write
I am so pissed at my parents! Who the hell in this world can be so selfish like they are! Come on, can't they think about me and my brother for once in their life! Now im setting up here in LK, only now i know who is who and what is what, and they want to move!! NO WAY!
I'm so not going to let that happen, i mean, come on, now i finally "got a life" here and they want to move, are they nuts or what! NO WAY!
is everyone listening, I AM NOT GOING TO MOVE AT LEAST FOR THE NEXT YEAR, unless its to England, Austalia, Singapore or go back to Brazil, I AM NOT MOVING!
if you are wondering how i end up last night, i tell you.
I sent a txt to " him " and he relyed only in the morning, how kind...in a really rude way!
here is what i sent "okay, its enough, lets put this in words okay. You hate me, then from a second to another you start talking to me like nothing happened, then yesterday (what means 2 days ago) you try to make me jealous saying how much you love your girlfriend and how perfecly you are happy with her and all these.. the main question is, what is these all about, i mean, whats the point of all these, whats is it all about"
okay, great, at 1.30 in the morning i sent, i got the reply at 8.30! and it woke me up!!!!
the reply:
" this is about me taking responsabilities, a man nearly 18, who was talking to you as a good friend (ps. he hated me a month ago! and always keep saying im stuped.), and was not trying to make you jealous, what would be the point in making you jealous. You are just childsh and keep messing up with everything victoria, that is what this is about!"
really nice reply isn't it..
What ever he says, i dont give a crap anymore. If its meant to be it will be..
I spoke about this reply with my friend, and about all the part of he saying how in love he is with his new girlfriend, whatever she is called...
Nina thinks he is lying about this girlfriend, and he is just trying to piss me off and make me jealous..
well it might be true what she says, i would love to know that at all..but i can't so..just live with it!
~> I am the only person with a real name here, all other people's name are fake...it's all a secret!
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Posted by vic_peixoto on 2008-04-16 14:16:37 | Rating: | Views: 56
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okay, the first post i am doing it myself, how stuped!
but, i just want to ask all the people been here to leave a comment...even if it "wow your writting suck so much" it counts... lol
mwah
VickY_*
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Posted by vic_peixoto
on 2008-04-16 14:39:25
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life is life no worries there are ups and down.. atleast u gt some close freinds with u. they should help cheer u up ;)
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Posted by Blank213
on 2008-05-04 05:27:20
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