and it's all a lie, or not.
that is a question i will have to accept to live with, why, because i am weak!
all the words i would like to say, straight into his face, never will come out in the right way. I will mess up!
so just leave it, i learn to live with it and we are all happy, except for me! But that does not count much...

he stays with his new girlfriend each i dont belive really is his girlfriend, but i cant say much because im dam angry and jealous about it but i can't help it!
oh if i could go back in the past, take back my words and my acts.

you know, i would really like to go back at exacly 3 months, 3 days and 3 hours!
let him know the truth, i would like to tell him i did never forget him, and i am so stuped and uuuuuhhhh!!!!!
*¨%@+!

calm down victoria! its all lots of facts each are really driving you crazy!

how cool, Leka your ex-best friend looks like got a crush on him, on him! my ex, each i dumped and each i still love!!! And he is a freak! I might be going crazy, but i know when someone is looking at me! i really know, and i just cant understand because, i cant read his eyes! because when he looks at me i dont know if its a good look or a bad look because i cant...i cant understand!  

First Things First!
 
Why does he look at me anyways, okay, i might wear some freak cloths and walk and talk in a weird way but, he already knows all in me, i mean, he was my boyfriend! so why does the look is there, and he got a Girlfried! so why the hell does de look!!!

Okay! Victoria you will have to accept the facts:
*you are weak! because you can go straight to him and tell the truth
*you can not accept the fact that he does not like you
*or he does and you dont know and you are afraid to ask
*you are weak (im typing again just to make sure me myself understood...)

MOVE ON!!!

things to do list
*Study History (for god's sake, why do we have to learn history!!!its the past! its gone!!!!)
*Move On!
*Try to sleep! And not cry!
*Get money from dad..Im Broke!
*Go to the Gym
*find something to do suring these week...Boredom!

good night!