If we didn't feel shitty feelings. We'd never be able to truly appreciate good ones. Life's a bitch sometimes. But don't feel alone. And don't convince yourself that nobody would want you. That's a pretty ballsy statement and quite impossible for one person to know. You're a beautiful girl. Keep in mind that every girl has probably felt similar feelings caused by the same thing. Also, it's not just girls. Men have their struggles too. Listen to my song "Matera Fumer", "Evaporate", or "Amnesty".
Ya I know, I'm a loser taking the opportunity to try and get people to listen to my music. But seriously, you said you need music, and these sorts of feelings and situations are what my music is for. www.myspace.com/strickland87. I hope to hear back from you.

this makes me think.

thanks.
nice music too

Your case is somewhat same as me. Even i was feeling frustrated when i loved a girl but but she loved somebody else. So that case can be solved by controlling your desire. i think each and every problem can be solved by controlling the desire. Here follow one more approach which i did. loving everybody will make you feel good. love everybody love mankind smile at everybody when you get smiles in return you will feel charming. and believe me you direction of thinking will change. keep yourselves busy in beautiful things.
the second problem is somewhat serious if you have started the characters of ocd recently stop it whatever it costs stop it but if this problem is severe consult a psychologist immediately (in this case you have to control your actions)
even i was a patient of ocd and the case was severe but i have somehow managed to come out of it
if you believe in god keep faith in him
best of luck and if you need any help and information for ocd then my email- khush250@gmail.com