I am so afraid. Tomorrow I get my Uni placement and I'm so afraid that I won't get in. But I'm also afraid of what I'll have to do if I do get in. I'll have to continue living. My life has been in limbo for the past 3 months and I like that. I like that I don't have to think or do much. But I'm also so afraid that I'll be stuck here forever. The attraction of doing nothing is that you know you won't be doing that for very long. The thought of an endless nothing depresses me.