I originally decided I was going to make this account at a point in time at which I was feeling overwhelmed by almost every aspect of my life - school, work, military, family, my relationship... to name the big ones.  And yet, my posts have been more of a news feed than anything.  "Well, this happened today, and this happened yesterday, and this is happening tomorrow, and blah blah blah, and sex sex sex..." I haven't expressed any raw emotion, let alone any of the raw emotion I had been experiencing when I made this damn journal.  I don't know why.  Maybe I'm starting to come to terms with everything that's been "wrong" lately?

-As I posted previously, my relationship ended on Sunday.  So aside from the awkward "let's have sex until one of us finds someone else or we get sick of each other" stage we're in right now, most of the stress from that situation was alleviated by the split.

-As I also posted in a previous entry, I failed a critical military test over the weekend, and now have to re-train in another career field because of it.  I was devastated at first, because I had already spent two and a half years in my current job, having completed everything short of passing this test.  Not only did I feel like a huge failure, I felt like the past two and a half years' worth of work was a ginormous waste of time.  HOWEVER, this turned out to be a blessing in disguise.  The job I picked is going to be much better for me, in terms of my personal capabilites and what's going to help me on the civilian side.  It'll be much more interesting than my current job, which is boring as shit.  (I'm fairly confident I failed this test because the job was slowly but surely boring me to death, and thus I couldn't seem to grasp the material... I know, I know, sounds like a lame excuse, but it might actually be true, and it makes me feel a lot better than just thinking I'm a total moron.)  Plus, I get to go back to tech school.  I'll be going back to the same one I went to in the first place, so I already know the area.  It's going to be considerably more fun than first time around.  So I'm feeling a lot better about having failed out, because things will be better for me in the long run this way.

-Family problems have been somewhat working themselves out, especially since I'll be moving out when I get back from tech school.  I think that's making us all get along by default because we all know I'll be gone soon, so why not make the last few months easy on each other?

-I have two finals tomorrow, and two on Monday.  Then school is done.

-As for work, I'm a little stressed about the hour cuts at both jobs, but meh, whatever.  Nothing I can do about it, so I'm not harping on it too much.

Really, things aren't so bad.  I mean... I know I don't NEED to justify the shallow-ness of my previous entries, because it's my blog, and why should I care what people think?  But ladies and gentleman, it's one of my biggest insecurities.  Caring about what people think of me has haunted me since I was just a kid, and continues to follow me through my 20s.  But maybe it's ok, because right now it's manifesting itself in my clearing my head.

Anyway.  Enough procrastination.  I have a lot of work to do.  Thanks for reading... Goodnight all.