I spent the evening at AJ's house, and before I even got there, I had a feeling things were going to be bad tonight.  Well, we were ok for the majority of the night, until he started falling asleep all over the place, and I got bored, and then irritated... I really need to break this habit.  There is no way I would take him back at this point, and we'll never get over each other if I keep hanging out at his place like this.

Things have become so weird.  His sister had a baby today, and he was so excited for her.  He sent me text messages all day telling me about the baby, where she delivered, how big he was, etc, and honestly, I couldn't care less.  In fact, I was annoyed by the constant updates.  When I got to his house, he couldn't wait to show me pictures, and when I saw them, the only thing I had to say was, "Wow, that's a fat baby." 

He became an uncle today, and I didn't share an ounce of his excitement.

I just wish I could be as strong as I'd like to be and just leave him behind.  Maybe stay in contact here and there, but not see each other because I KNOW the only reason I'm still hanging around is because it's comfortable.  It's comfortable having a key to his place, and it's comfortable knowing that I can call him up anytime I feel like going out to eat or going for a run, and it's comfortable know I have someone at my disposal to satisfy my physical needs every once in a while... but I also recognize the fact that taking advantage of all this is doing more harm than good.

I need to grow a pair, and set the distance between us that I want and that I had intended when I ended the relationship.  Help?