Thoughts.com Blogs - I Don't Belong.....

In this world
I feel like I don't belong
Going through the pain in the day
And the tears at night
Doesn't fit me
Because most people know me as a happy person
They don't see who I really am
Because I hide it
Behind a person who I'm not
I have no idea why I do it
And I wonder every day.....
"If I have to go hide myself from people then there's no point in living right?"
I dont want people to have sympathy for me
And that's why I think I do it
But once in a while it's nice to know you have somebody there
Someone who understands
But the thing is
I don't
And it's getting harder for me to go thru every single day
I haven't really been thru alot
I don't know what "being happy" means...
The worst part is
I don't know what love means....
And I want to know
Because I want someone to stop these tears
And take away all my fears
That I've been putting up with the last 14 years
I feel like I just don't belong...