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OK so Shit, lots has happened and I know it's been ages since I wrote. Quite a few months. In that time I've had a FAIL of a 'relationship' that lasted 2 weeks and involved no kissing and I didn't even LIKE him that much. I ENDED IT. I told my Dad I knew about his affair, he's done nothing, my Dad now has a new hobby other than belittling my mom which is hitting her. My best friend deserted me, we are speaking again but it will NEVER be the same. I like about 100 boys at the moment and am utterly confused. Oh and I also came out to my mother about being Bisexual. She took it horrifically. I also told a few close friends and it feels good to finally talk about it. I didn't even mention it on here, I thought it was a passing phase, that started when I was about 4... hmm phaze sure... LOL ! XD
So we are about 2 weeks into SUMMER HOLIDAYS and it's been OK x The Annual Summer Party down in Devon at Olivias other house was a total DISASTER everyone got drunk save me. I was fending off strange lunges, peeling my friends off the floor, trying to stop EVERYONE crying and attempting also to save Olivia's family friends from being molestered. Half achieved...
My girlfriend Charliee broke up with me because she is going through a mental time with her parents divorce, we got back together, she cheated 2 days later, I have closed tha door.
I still endeavour however at the age of now 14 to find TRUE LOVE though I am not quite as naiive as before and am ENTIRLEY aware that I am not going to find it at this age. But ... I have found another love MAKEUP. I know that sounds silly but I mean it. I want to be a catwalk make up artist. I'm getting rather good if I may say so.
Thoughts of Woody are finally dimming, the nightmares less frequent and the suspicion of every man waning, I still find it hard to be out alone but I keep going out each night as I used to. Also aware this is HIGHLY unintellegent but I crave the peace and quiet of the woods and early dawn.
Maybe I need to learn to love myself before I can hope to find true love when I am older. So I will now try and ;
EXFOLIATE MY SKIN DAILY
MAKE SURE I ALWAYS WEAR MY BRACE BANDS -.-
STOP BITING MY NAILS
STOP PICKING SPOTS
STOP BEING LAZY WITH HOMEWORK
START EXCERSISING MORE
START EATING BETTER
START APPRECIATING MY FRIENDS MORE
STOP FALLING FOR PEOPLE LEFT RIGH AND CENTRE AND DECIDE ON WHO I REALLY LIKE
TAKE UP GUITAR
CLEAN MY ROOM
I predict failure but that isn't particularly optimisitc.... OH WELL
Hope you missed me BUT I'M BACK
Yours truly ELLA MENTAL X
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