so today has been one achievment after another. i didnt sleep at all, my leg killed. at one point i had no energy or ability to lift my leg.  had it elevated on a pillow but the pillow at one point moved and i couldnt manage to get my leg to move so i had no pillow. it was a sad, so then i had to pee right, oh that was fun. it took me at least 20minutes to get out of bed and drag my ass to the bathroom. while at the bathroom i realiez that i had another problem. my toilet is too close to the bathtub and my knee cant bend to far or go completely straight. so i had to sit sideways ... i did manage to have no mess, it was painful ... GREAT SUCCESS. to i get back to my bed lay down and attempted to close my eyes. what do you know, mittens my lovely kitten comes running in and jumps on my bad leg. then she walks around and knocks all of the items on my headboard onto my head. then she knocks all the stuff on my desk down. she evenually left and layed with becca. next thing ya know it becca wakes and and gives me a kiss and checks up on me before she showers... she is soo sweet, that was the best part of the night. so then she showers and helps me get my stabilier on and get set up in the livingroom. so she leaves for school, i sat and watched tv played online. after a few hours i made a goal to get up make a bagel and sit back down. it took like 10 minutes but i did that made tea and got both to the livingroom without makinga mess. so i lay down for a few and wait for my bro to head back with my meds. he gets back and starts putting groceries away. next thing ya know the alarms are going off and all you smell is gas. i try and get up, i yelled for my bro to  check the rooms, then my house filled with smoke from the vents, i seriously thought my house was on fire. i hobble my way around my apartment then got may way into the basement to check the oil burners, so then i managed to climb to sets of stairs and get my neighbor to call her mom ... the landlord and get people to come check the house... wtf, im crippled for a few shit like this needs to not happen when i am unable to move fast. so i lay back down and relax, i then plotted how i was going to shower. i get up and managed to undress and turn the shower on. i used my crutch and lifted myself into the shower... another great success. my leg felt sooo nice after the shower the heat helped relieve tension and i was able to dry and re-dress with less pain  than when i got in. so now im sitting here im gonna relaz then attempt to eat something... i cant wait becca will be home later, i miss her, i cant wait to tell her of my success of showering and hopefully getting dinner ON MY OWN. i know im gonna be out of order for at least a week but im empowered to make it work without ruining my treatment. i just cant sit around for days, plus we are going to connecticut in 2 days i dont wanna be hobbling around cuz thats just a pain in the ass i wanna be able to walk indeoendently and not take 20 minutes to go 10 feet. i believe that i will be ok, im focused and im taking time to relax. i like to think im healing the smart way. do a little spuraticly... anywho im off gonna relax, hey im off of work i might as well enjoy as much as possible