Wow it seems like just yesterday and at the same time it seems like a lifetime ago that I started to blog on this site and I just wanted a journal of my 90 day leadership and it has turned out to be the turning point in my life. 1st of all it was more like 102 days but that is beside the point.

Looking back I cant believe all that has happened. Looking back I see what the point of my leadership was all about. Looking back I see I got what I was looking for. Looking back I realize I cant go back.

I cant go back and unlearn everything I have learned. It would be alot easier that way but it just cant be done.

I was wanting to know what's next? what's next for me in this life? I prayed to God to just give me the sign and I would do whatever it takes to get it done. Well it all started when I decided to just be open and whatever came to me would come to me for a reason. Here I thought everything was going to be on a positive upward swing and I learned real quick that was not gonna happen. My life just seems to work that way. As any outsider would look at what I have been through the last few months and wonder how I would ever be able to come out of it with any good at all or any sanity what-so-ever. BUT that's the way I roll. Is what I have come up with is my Mission in life and thats pretty huge. In my greatest defeat will come my biggest challenge and my greatest victory.

Stir the Soul may just say it all. Stir the Soul lives..........

What is Stir the Soul? Stir the Soul was a vision I had in the first few days of my leadership. I got this vision one night when I first closed my eyes to go to sleep, I started to see bright lights and then there were colors, all kinds of colors, not bright ones but very subdued colors and then all of the sudden there was this crystal clear body of water and it looked liked when a rain drop falls, where the rings get bigger and bigger and then it was clear, crystal clear water and I saw this big building and there was a women standing back looking up at it and there was a big sign that read STIR the SOUL and that was it (mind you there are no drugs or alcohol involved) so I began to wonder what is Stir the Soul and who is that women? Well now the vision has unfolded. I can see now that the women was me and the building was a drug and alcohol recovery center. Stir the Soul is the name of it. I almost wish I didnt know. Like I said I prayed to God to show me the way and all the sudden it hit me right upside the head. It was like a smack upside the head with a 2x4.

My whole life has been surrounded with drug addicts and alcohol abuse, not my own but everywhere and drugs scared me, mainly pills and such. Every time I turned around it was coming up with people I knew, people in the news, people on TV and I would always make it a point to show this crap to my kids and let them know this shit was the devil. Then here I am faced with it in the most powerful way to get my attention. My own child addicted to drugs, my own child that I hear someone say, oh that kid is just a drug addict, my own child wandering the street for days not knowing what the hell is going on. My own child that now sits in jail because the system has failed him time and time again. Well do you get it yet Lynette? Do you get it that you have cried and screamed and said how there is no help available out there for so many years, do you get it that you can make a difference. Stop crying and complaining how there is no where for these people to turn. Do you get it that you are suppose to do something about it? Do you get it that some police officer points at your child and says oh he's nothing, he's just a drug addict? Yeah, I get it. These no good for nothing drug addicts are some one special, they are humans , these drug addicts are someone's baby, these drug addicts are someones Mother these drug addicts are someone special to some one, these drug addicts can get better and help change the world. These drug addicts need someone to believe in them. I believe I can make a difference.

So if you would have told me 3 short months ago that I would be building a center to help in the recovery of drug and alcohol abuse I would have said No WAY. but I believe I have been chosen, I know I didn't choose this, why would I choose this? It scares me, it's negative, right? well I believe if I can make the difference to just one family that would be worth it. I know that drugs in this family have taken it's toll on me and it has affected way more then me, it has affected every friend and every family member and even co-workers. So if I can touch one drug addict and save their life then I actually could have saved a hundred people by touching that one life.

So I got the answer to the big question. What's next for me? Build it and they will come. Stir the Soul baby, you know you want to.

My soul has been eternally stirred. I cant go back to pretending I dont know! I cant pretend that I didnt see a beautiful little girl just die from drug abuse and I cant pretend that drugs have not taken away my childrens childhood from them. I just cant go back. Since I cant go back, I might as well go full speed ahead.